Why am i so jealous in Journal 2022

Stalking J’s Twitter is something I try not to do often because I see comments that make me jealous. I used to breakdown with my ex doing this and I remember I laid in bed, crying and screaming into a pillow as I felt my skin feel like it was boiling, I was shaking so hard.

Anger issues aside, I’m fine and secure in this relationship. And if J ever cheated on me, I would destroy myself. I would self combust, probably jump lol but that would never happen hahahaha.