Criticism in Journal

I’m a competitive person. I like being good. Not just good. I love and relish the pride, the confidence, the self-esteem of doing something difficult, well.
So when I receive criticism, I love it. I absolutely love and cherish and value criticism for the simple fact that it makes me better. I’ve hired people just to criticize me. I had an Olympic level dressage coach. I followed competitive Judo. I submitted my writing, my essays, my ideas, to people who I knew would provide disinterested(unbiased) critical feedback.
So, I really appreciate criticism. It’s part of attaining excellence.
And, I really resent fake criticism. Or insults, as it were.