"Existential/Esoteric Crisis" in Current Events

It’s a beautiful thing to wake up and be overthinking everything esoteric. I’m not being facetious, these are good days. Overthinking used to be a curse. It can still be a curse but now that I have things that I am passionate about, it’s not a curse. Focusing on the esoteric generates higher emotions. Toxic thoughts generate heavy emotions. Crippling emotions. Which is not bad or good. Those are full of insight and lessons.

I think in pictures, I see things differently than most. I am an outsider, I observe. I am a product of the times and I am witnessing the world around me. I am a modern philosopher, so to speak. Now that I’ve connected to the bottom of the rabbit hole, I am trying to see the world through the lens of truth. It looks absolutely different from what I accepted as reality just a few years ago. I have a quantity of knowledge but not quality. I have to pick and choose what I need to develop. The complexities of the world are too much for one consciousness, of course. I wish I could find others on my level so that we can get into deep conversations about everything.

I thought I had come back down to earth after my body expressed healing in December. New year old me I was calling it. It felt like I went full circle. I just had the most intense years of my life, con-19 aside. I lost everything and that was necessary so that I could grow. I was cleaving to fictions, not that I knew it at the time. I wasn’t going to let go of it all for myself so Saturn removed all of it for me. It was never the content in my life that was eating away at my soul it was the context. I didn’t have to wait for a midlife crisis to discover that for myself, thank goodness. I found myself, I dove deep into myself and started my inward journey. My Saturn is placed in Sagittarius, I am a natural at exploring my mind. Going where most people will not go.

When I tried to connect to the world again, I could not. For starters, I had no principles, no convictions and I stood for nothing. I slowly learned that I was falling for everything. I dove into politics to develop my opinions where absolutely everything flipped. Even those have flipped again into something higher. I explored politics where my opinions were challenged and changed. Debates are important for that. I need to be able to represent my opinions and grow them. However, I can now that I am shifting out of that paradigm altogether. It’s another cult. It’s words of men and laws of men. The word of God and the laws of God are what I need to be connecting to. I’ll have to find a balance, and I will.

However, this real-world that I came back down to is not the real world at all. It’s the prison that we’ve all spiritualized. None of us asked for it but we have a responsibility to get ourselves out of this system. To be in it but not of it, so to speak. This system is falling apart anyway. It’s a controlled demolition by our enemy and the verdict is still out on who will build a new one. Those cleaving to the old normal are going to go down with it. Things are about to get absolutely worse before they get better and better it will. In the end we all walk the right hand path.

In this timeline we are in, this vaccine inquisition is trying to bind us all together under medical mandates. Under a one-world re-legion ruled by big pharma. Germ theory is the superstitious belief system that this priestcraft system we call healthcare is built on. It will not last. People are waking up to the real cause of disease. It is cute that people need unequivocal evidence to change their opinion on germ theory when germ theory does not even have that, to begin with. Not that unequivocal evidence would even change their mind. These germaphobes are puritans. Let the dead tend to the dead. The truth is inevitable. It can take many lifetimes. What we mustn’t lose, in this system, is our ability to choose. We can choose holistic medicine and let big pharma collapse.

In this timeline we are in, we are about to lose our ability to choose. We are the power, the enemy is the control. Their control is currency. Inflation happens because of government spending or from too many of us spending. This currency is a just monetized debt. It wasn’t built to last. The enemy needs to depopulate the world and herd us into a new system where they can control our spending with social credit. Mastercard and the UN just teamed up and plan to monitor our carbon footprint where they will turn off their credit if you exceed their limit. Climate change is the new communist manifesto, we either know that or we don’t. If we don’t belief in the great reset at this point, I don’t have time for you. It’s right in front of our faces, the writing is on the wall. It is the number one seller on Amazon for crying out loud. Our governments, here in the west, are spending like crazy to try and collapse the economy on purpose. They’re blaming anti-vaxxers, climate change and Russia. Everyone but themselves, naturally.

Once we have nothing to lose, which will be very soon, we shall see what happens. Will people finally rise up? Hard to say. They are already manufacturing food shortages. They lost the plot on Russia now. They are about to be exposed in courts and we predict a manufactured cyber attack that will shutdown our grid. Our internet at the minimum. They need to control the information so they can keep telling us lie after lie. We are at the point where we are being told to not trust our eyes, that man in woman’s sports for example. We are getting past the point of return. It’s a complete system failure. We’ll just have to wait and see who builds back better. None of our leaders are acting like they’re in a position of control. Justice is closing in on them. They cannot give up, it’s life or death for them so all of this has to play out.

Ecclesiastic law, those are the words that were the loudest in my head while I was waking up. Those are laws for the living and in this system, we are all lost at sea and presumed dead. Nobody has ever claimed that they are alive, nobody has claimed their rights etc. Our money is monetized debt, we are bankrupt and bankrupt people cannot make legal claims. The only way out of this system is in. The exoteric that we all accept as reality is actually written by the esoteric. They are not separate from each other at all. You need only give your head a shake and realize that the judge is obviously a priest. There is something else going on. This legal system is just more priestcraft. Civil law is ancient Roman law for conquered territory. We are all lifted off the land and on citizen ships using the law of the sea. The law of the land, the land of the living, is for men and women, not for persons. The only way out is in.

I ordered some books on law which arrived yesterday. Regarding this faux system that we are all spiritualizing. I am aiming to get out of it. To stop funding it. To stop contracting with it. If I show any incompetence in the process, I can get eaten alive. For I am a ward of the state like everybody else.

All of these contracts and promises that we unconsciously make in this system weigh my consciousness down. I picture a bubble, it’s a torus field with red-shift blue-shift. It is magnetism, electricity and dielectricity. It can expand and become lighter, if it vibrates higher than the moon then I can leave this plane. If not, Saturn sends it back until it does. Death is door aether. There is a whole psycho-chemical process to achieve this but none of us are capable of it in this lifetime. Our bodies are under constant assault. Our physiology is degraded before we are even born, this medical cult believes that our bodies are born pharmaceutical deficient and their vaccines destroy our bodies. This is all about the spine, our spear, our heritage was robbed and we have lost our spear-rituals to achieve this.

The ancient knowledge of how to heave up the psycho-chemical germ at the base of our spines returns in this turning of the age. The revolution mankind will have is the only one that will be interbalized. There will be no revolution outside of ourselves, just the dissolution of this system we are all cleaving to. Saturn will take it away. I know this because we are all praising and channelling Saturn, unbeknownst to us. He is conditions, he is law, he is material. The spiritual nature of us is what is being removed. The lame new-agers seem to be carrying too much water-sign energy, in my opinion. They reject the physical, the material and the conditions and uniting the two is how we become whole and holy. However, this process I speak of is one that takes decades.

This new earth, they speak of, is not one we can create for we are the minds that created it. You can not fix a problem with the same consciousness that created it. The next generations will have to be the ones who create it. Those waking up and growing this movement are not seeing how we are not here to save the world we are here to break it.

My birth chart is heavily ruled by Saturn. It gives me many gifts and lets me bring all of these high concepts down to earth. Into something palatable. I can see what my destiny is from my birth chart but my Taurus rising energy is in the way. The negative aspects of it at least. I’m a Capricorn, I have all of the ambitions of one but all of the willpower of a Taurus that doesn’t feel like it. That never feels like it. My curse is waiting to feel like it before I start anything. I only feel like being lazy and eating all day. I have potent Scorpio placements in my chart that can help me with this but I need to get started. My mind is just all over the place and it is hard to ground myself. Blah blah blah. Anyway, I have a lot to do today. I need to get on with that. Tomorrow is my sacred self-care Sunday and I will organize myself and work on being goal-oriented. What I need to rush into is teaching myself about currency and start investing yesterday. It’s all coming down soon.

Side note, my aunts and uncles from my father’s side are all getting restitution from the government because of the abuse they suffered in residential schools. My father is not alive to receive that and I am not interested in carrying that kind of generational karma but my sister wants it for her children. The money that is. Only the eldest is allowed to apply so that would be me. My uncle is going to reach out to me about what steps I need to take. I feel absolutely dirty about this. I did not earn it. My aunts and uncles want this for us so they won’t stop bringing it up to my sisters. My father would be here if he hadn’t suffered that trauma from those schools, so a part of me says. The other part of me says that it was up to him to alchemize that trauma. It was his responsibility, not mine.

We are response-able. Response-ability is our godly superpower. Our capacity to respond is finite but our ability to respond is limitless. I’ll have to meditate on this and think of something I can do with this money if it should start coming my way. Give it back to something or someone(s). I’m not one to think about community, I have “toxic individuality”… I don’t know where I am going with this. I need to rush out. Giving back is not my forte. I want to give forward, so to speak. Whatever, I have time to think about it. Using it to invest in currency is ideal. That’s all I know for sure. Anyway, on with my Saturn day.