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I got out of bed at two this morning because I knew that I wasn’t going to fall back asleep. I didn’t know what to do with myself. I still don’t. All-day I have just been feeling like things are off. That there is a shift.

I didn’t want to start my day off feeling any negativity but my usual trigger hit me. Last night I cooked dinner for Toni, as always. I usually clean up after that but I was too tired and gave up fighting with myself to stay awake. Toni didn’t touch any of the dishes, as always. I cleaned that up this morning and as always, Toni brought out dirty dishes from her room and put them beside the sink. The dishwasher is directly under the sink. I don’t know what she thinks happens when she does that shit. She must think that things just magically happen when you leave it. She always commits to doing the childish thing and I can’t fucking take it anymore. I decided to be childish and just rip the dishwasher open and scoop it all into it and let it land where it may.

At work, Mike came at me about a few things regarding my service lists. I logged some tasks that needed to be done and he wanted to be the big guy and call me out on any mistake possible. He approached me while I was having my lunch to tell me that I needed to see him when I was done. I brought my supervisor and she made him look so stupid. He was. It was so funny. He’s a Gemini through and through. He doesn’t like to look stupid. I was getting attitude from him the rest of the day. It was cute.

I’m just sitting at my altar which is now a computer desk for my laptop and I am trying to stay awake. I have some whiskey with me that I am drinking. I came home to the exact same thing. The kitchen was clean when I left the apartment and I come home and saw that my roommate emptied her lunch bag and left all her dishes beside the sink for them to magically be cleaned by the adult fairies. Of all of the things to get mad about in the world, this is what is making my blood boil.

The satin sheets that I ordered are to arrive today. I am looking forward to that. Frig, I don’t think I can keep going like this. I need to nap. blah blah