I am still going. in Since OD is shutting down....

Okay so up until last weekend, my daughter and niece didn’t see each other in about 2 months, again. I went over there and broke the news that we are moving. My brother thinks that I should just go stay down there for like a month and then decide because once I go, it’ll be next to impossible trying to find a place if I wanted to come back. I know he’s right about that but once I go, I highly doubt I would ever consider coming back.

I text him when we got home saying that if I were to consider staying I would need to know that the kids are going to see each other on a pretty regular basis and if that I ever needed to be away from my kid that he would take her so I know she’s safe. He hasn’t responded but I don’t care, I still plan to continue on with packing and moving.

I think it’s bullshit that he’s not supportive of us moving but he’s not been hardly any support this whole time either. I feel like it’s him wanting his cake and eating it too because it’s easier to not worry about me a mile away than being hours away.

Even if I do stay, none of my problems are going to go away or even get better. I’ve had no support system or social outlet and I just can’t keep living my life like this. It’s always going to be like this and I refuse to spend my life lonely and have absolutely zero fucking help unless it’s on someone else’s terms.