seven. in the damn. morning. in --

Sigh.

Cannon finally fell asleep at almost 2am. Then I woke up a lot, as usual. Then Jacob's alarm went off, needlessly, at 7am. So now I'm wide awake because I have anxiety about getting the house cleaned before Jacob's mom arrives later today. WHY CAN'T I JUST SLEEP.

My anxiety has been terrible during this entire pregnancy. I am really hoping it at least becomes more manageable after Lorelei is born. I really don't want to be on anxiety medication while breastfeeding. It makes me uncomfortable.

I've been sitting here for like, almost ten minutes trying to remember what I was really going to write about.

I put on a shirt last night that I wore around 35/36 weeks with Cannon, and the damn thing would not go over my belly. I am 32 weeks. HOW CAN I POSSIBLY GET MUCH BIGGER.

We are going to Rock Fest later on this evening. Korn is headlining. How are they even still doing this. Is it 1999.

I remember when they were on TRL. Isn't it weird that Korn was on TRL? I think so. I mean, #7 on the countdown would be a Mandy Moore song, and then Korn would come on. (???) Now MTV doesn't play music at all, do they? It's just Catfish and whatnot. I've seen that show. The second-hand embarrassment is SUPER high. But I still watch it.

I watch the dumbest shows. Hulu has this show called "I Wanna Marry Harry" and it's like the Bachelor, but the dude looks like Prince Harry and the women all think he is, even though he didn't say he is. They're all like "Oh my gawd, she is NOT princess material like I am!!!" You're not either, sweetheart. Go back to Iowa.

[[Actually Des Moines has a really interesting restaurant called Zombie Burger that I go to go to once. I liked it.]]

I always watch shows like that. I'm admitting it publicly, but I probably shouldn't.

Right now I'm also watching The Bachelorette. The last episode had the guys do a strip show for charity. It made me very uncomfortable.

I'm quite a prude, actually.