Feels Like Standing Still For Eons And Eons... in Hello

Like trying to run through a vat of banana pudding, sounds nice and tempting at first with a hint of sweets...then you realize that you're just a dumbass standing in $500 worth of high fructose vanilla flavoring and yellow dye #2.

I think I've made my peace with everything. She is, "casually dating," someone else already. Not really surprised anymore. The one person I once thought as, "safe," does a one-eighty and defies all my expectations. The option for us to, "casually date," is on the table. But in all seriousness...there is so much gray area in that damn phrase...I've been there way too many times over the last eight years. No stranger to this freak show.

It affected me bad today at work. Not quite sure why. Combination really. A job I ran yesterday I thought was OK came back on me. The centerline was off a couple of thousandths. Forty-one parts. The better part of my eight hour day. Guess what kid? All scrap! Start over! This week I have been on my own with the CNC lathes and it is a bit intimidating. When training with Zakk I was shown how to load programs and delete programs and tinker a bit with said programs. Then I was put on our supervisors two machines, placed with two of the older guys for a week, and given a crash course in, "Show us what ya got." I learned more off Jim and Red in that brief time. I'm getting...decent-ish at setup. It can be a pain in the ass...especially when it can range from a number of different things depending on size of material and what job is being ran...and there are the dimensions on the different prints.

But yeah...had a bit of a break down at work. Funny thinking back on it now, hanging my head in the machine and boo hoo'ing like a little bitch. Stress from the weekend. Stress from learning those parts were wrong (one hundred and twenty-four piece job.) Everything in my cracked shell leaked to the surface. I feel better now. I'm fine.

Music: "Eons" by 311