Age Gap relationship? in Journal 2022

So. Joseph is into me. He knew I had a crush and I don’t know what our relationship is anymore. I felt sick but thrilled? And mistreated to the idea and then felt sicker and that I was going to puke. I genuinely don’t know what to do. It’s like a dream come true but he is 23 and I’m turning 19 in a few months.

I decided to just shut up. And let whatever happens happen. I talked to a friend about it and they said be careful so I will.
I have to just be quiet.. be fine. Watched Euphoria today and it was good.