Nerve & Nerves in Current Events

My nerves are a little high. I feel anxious because I am going to book an appointment to cut and colour my hair. It’s a habit to experience this as worry but I can simply commit to a context that will make this experience exciting instead. It’s simple but not easy, naturally. I’m going to create high expectations and then get let down after. That is the story I am telling myself. Anything is better than what I got going on right now. I’m one month away from being able to throw my hair up. I’m in that awkward growing-out phase. I wanted to commit to growing my hair out again but something shifted within me after my body expressed illness and I am feeling a bit more like my old self who liked to care about his image. Maybe I am just in a rut and want to break out of it with a makeover? Why am I overthinking this bullshit? I’m the #1 bullshit guy.

Yesterday I spent the evening with my sister and her children. It’s been about a month since I got to see my niece and nephew. I missed them so much. I also missed their puppy. We watched the new Hotel Transylvania and then I passed out. This morning she showed me something spooky on her phone. I don’t remember which social media platform she was on but she showed that her feed was suddenly flooded with everything I talked about the day before.

My sister informed me that my mother got weird about me. I took a rapid test when my body expressed illness that last week of 2021. I didn’t actually want to take it. A friend offered to bring me one because I was wondering if my work would want me to take one before I came back. I just wanted one handy but when she got here she said that I had to take it while she was present because she didn’t have a way to give me a portion of the solution, or something. That test was positive. I mentioned it to my mother and it naturally convinced her that I had con-19. Another friend dropped off a rapid test for me the next day and that one was negative. These things are obviously a joke. Germ theory is the main joke here. Germs don’t cause disease, it is a baseless claim to say otherwise. Immunology and virology are all pseudosciences. Nothing they do is verifiable and representative of reality. Nothing they claim is ever qualified with actual science just $cience. If they were a real science we would be parading around an isolated coronavirus and taking advice from a Nobel prize winner that successfully replicated disease with it but that’s not where we are because it’s all a hoax.

Speaking of using our phones to spy, Health Canada helped themselves to track everybody’s phones over the holidays. 87% of us. Canada is still fully committed to medical tyranny. They have to be, criminal syndicates will never admit they are lying and guilty of anything. Our politicians and our media have to commit. Instead, Trudeau is trying to regulate what we see and say online. He is also trying to suspend our Charter of Rights for five years so he can force everybody to do the right thing and participate in the central bank’s depopulation program. The plot is irrevocably lost and it shows in America. Biden’s regime is falling, America is winning. The federal mandate was struck down, the Election Bill died, the filibuster survived the Senate. Fauci, the CDC director, and even Bill Gates are all backtracking on the narrative. Last year, Canada proved it reached herd stupidity by re-electing Trudeau. However, maybe it’s better to stick with the devil you know than the devil you don’t. We are fully committed to the propaganda up here.

Here in Chinada, the Ronald McDonald house tried to evict a young boy with leukemia for not taking an experimental medical protocol that failed three times. The backlash made them change their tune. Trudeau’s regime is obviously trying to manufacture a food shortage. He had to backpedal on his radical mandates with truck drivers. Maybe our shelves won’t be so bare after all? Saskatchewan, their premier explained why they will never return to lockdowns. My province is building a narrative that we all just have to live with con-19. We still have radicalized extremist measures aimed at medical heretics, of course. The criminal syndicate is going to make a huge push because they lost the plot. Whatever just let the dead tend to the dead I don’t want to polarize with any of this anymore. If the vaccinated are right then the unvaccinated will die from a mythical virus that has a lethal 99.9% survival rate. If the unvaccinated are right then the vaccinated will die from their vaccines. Either way, the world will have fewer idiots. There is nothing left to fight about. Of course, anybody that is in touch with their God-given power of discernment knows which of the two are right.

This con-19 hoax was built on a PCR that the CDC no longer even authorizes. It cannot determine anything. The real science behind the $cience everybody believes is that the PCR amplifies our own waste nucleotides that we create when we are in detox. The HIV hoax was created the same way that con-19 was. It even included Fauci. The Nobel prize winner that invented the PCR fought against its use to diagnose infection. It cannot tell you if what it finds is alive, infectious or clinically significant etc. With the HIV hoax, they never qualified their claims that a virus was giving people AIDS. It was the treatments that were killing people. Just like these mRNA vaccines will. We will continue to slowly poison ourselves, all the toxic material will be stored in bones, joints, fat cells etc until the liver decides what route it will use to remove it. Then because everybody is superstitious they will think that they are experiencing viral possession and they will foolishly run to a medical priest to suppress their symptoms, which is the cure. Suppressing symptoms makes things worse because now we cannot detox all of the toxic wastes. While it’s all being stored our bodies will try to neutralize the acidity depleting us of vitamins, minerals and salts that we will need when the time comes to remove the non-self from self. They won’t have what they need to detox efficiently and they will just die. These vaccinated elites, the chosen ones that accepted the mRNA vaccine as their lord and saviour, are ticking time bombs.

The germ theory is just false, we do not catch anything nor spread anything through respiratory droplets. There is no science that proves that. There is no isolated virus and no medical literature of a study that replicated disease with the artifacts that they call a virus. Terrain theory refutes germ theory in every single way because it is tried, tested and true. These hospitals are just rife with people who do not love themselves. I refuse to make the mistake of believing that everybody with compromised health is a victim.

Mainstream healthcare is an obvious repurposed system of priestcraft. You either see that or you don’t. It’s a death cult. Just let the dead tend to the dead, I’m not responsible to protect people who refuse to do it for themselves. I don’t want to play germ theory for these narcissists. The only victims are children. Parents will do anything to protect their children except research what doctors are doing to them. We all have a responsibility to be intelligent. If you can’t question the $cience then you don’t have science you have a dogma. I had that brainwash, that programming is not separate from me. I remember it all well. In that paradigm, it is ignorant to educate yourself and it is virtuous to blindly trust the experts. Intelligence is far-right radicalism. We are all using a kindergarten view of everything because nobody has the courage to develop and use their discernment. We just want to commit to our delusion of control and safety. We are not in control and we are not safe. It is clear that we all did we was expose the herd stupidity worldwide.

Anyway, work yesterday was interesting. My boss had a meeting with HR and the store manager about my claim that they discarded the workplace hazard reports I submitted last month. They were long lists of dirty laundry that they didn’t want to be aired. They created propaganda to send up their ladder. I have all the receipts. I don’t know how that meeting went but my boss was not in a good mood after. I don’t want to overthink it. I did the right thing. The store has a zero retaliation policy, I’ll be testing how strong that is I suppose. I was given an opportunity to survey the entire store to write down every single safety standard issue. It’s four pages long. We are creating a spreadsheet and the store will decide how they will execute it all. The problem is that it is the store’s responsibility to correct it and not my team. We will obviously be involved because we are literally the only people who know how to execute any of it. I don’t think I committed career suicide, my boss has my back with this. She will fight for me.

Alright, the barbershop is open now. I guess I’ll get up the nerve to call them and book an appointment with the guy that Andrew recommended. I know what cut I want, I’m still not sure about the exact colour but I want it grey, silver or white. I want to leave the roots alone to add some dimension but I guess I will decide on the colour on that very day. If they even colour it. Their website says that they do. This cut and colour should help hide my busted-up hairline. I have bald spots all over my legs and now it is clear that something is actually going on. I booked an appointment with a specialist last year but backed out last second. I should get on that again. That appointment was just about the hair on my scalp but now I can see that it is elsewhere.

Toni also wants to go to IKEA today. I’ll ask her for gas money this time because gas ain’t cheap right now and this store is on the other side of the city. She says there is no rush but I want to support her with getting furnishings for her room. She is living out of storage totes, I was just living out of suitcases before we moved in together and it’s not easy. Today she wants help getting a dresser and I want her to have a dresser. Bruce also invited me over to her place for a game night. Tomorrow is her birthday, I cannot say no. I will be meeting some new people, my social anxiety better leave me alone. Tomorrow I am heading over to Bev’s because her kids miss me. I miss them too. Anyway, on with my day I suppose.