Sun Day Fun Day in Current Events

Toni ordered us Cilantros on Friday and she made me a peanut butter & chocolate pie for my birthday. It was hilarious that she also hid a birthday present in a stocking that she has hanging on the wall. Her Christmas tree and decorations are still up. It was so sweet of her.

I am still going through it with my eczema breakout. It’s getting better but the crotch area, like really? I do like the idea of using Epson salt to detox. I will buy an unscented one from Amazon on payday. I failed to realize that the one I have is scented. That is why I am breaking out everywhere from the neck down.

I found a store in my city that sells DMSO (Dimethyl Sulfoxide). I was browsing online and it would appear that we are not allowed to ship it to or within Canada because of health restrictions. I am going to call that store later to see if they are even allowed to sell it. DMSO is close to a silver bullet to remedy one’s health and ailments. There is no silver bullet of course. If you know the real cause of disease that is. DMSO is just a byproduct of the wood industry and it can perform a lot. I’ll also buy a book on all the ways it can be used and all the ways it can help, to support the terrain doctor that I like. She’s a warrior in the truth movement. Gave up her license to practice so that she could talk about the real causes of disease. Also so she can discuss vaccines which are all 100% bio weapons that create chronic diseases so that big pharma can sell their petro potions and barbaric treatments. We’ve all been conditioned to believe that symptoms are the devil and need to be stopped. However, they are the cure and you work with them and not against them. She’s a full truther to boot. I suppose once you learn that germ theory is one of the biggest and most deadliest hoaxes to be pushed on humanity it is easy to accept the big truths in the rabbit hole.

To treat myself for my birthday I placed an order on ASOS. I haven’t purchased any new clothes in a couple of years. I could use some new underwear and I racked up the bill so I could get free shipping. Just got a few clearance items. I feel guilty for the purchase for no good reason.

A song came on that I instantly liked. I didn’t realize that Machine Gun Kelly shifted genres. I like his whole album Tickets to my Downfall. It makes me feel nostalgic for the music I used to like when I was young. Nostalgic for that whole scene I was into. Anyway, after I listened to his album on Amazon Music the rest of my apps started to show a lot of MGK on my feeds. On Pinterest, a lot of his hairstyles flooded my feed and I found one I can’t stop thinking about. I think I might just get it. I am one month away from being able to throw my hair up again. I’m conflicted. I want my long hair back but I also want to YOLO (nobody says that anymore lol). I am even thinking about dying my hair white or silver also. I’ve always wanted to do so. YOLO and all that. I’ll wait until payday and if I can’t shake the feeling I will book a cut. I’ll learn how to colour on my own and just buy the products to do so. YOLO.

Sunday’s are my self-care day. I do my paws and claws, I cleanup my facial hair and I exfoliate everything and then bask in moisturizer and oils. I also do my liver detox (coffee enema) and I am aiming to add the Epson salt soak to my regime as well. Some Sundays I also fast. This all starts right when Toni leaves for work.

I’m going to Bev’s later so she can teach me how to make her chilli. It’s a recipe that flops and turns into a soup that tastes so good. I’ve been craving it. I think it’s because she uses vegan mock meats for me and that affects the whole recipe. Doesn’t matter, I’m a big fan anyway.

The TV in my room, the one I just won from work last week, my WIFI can’t reach it too well, so it would appear. Netflix kept pausing to buffer last night. I’ll move my modem etc closer, I guess.

Anyway, lots of boring boring stuff. Better than the high anxiety I couldn’t control last weekend. I’m also avoiding the political medical hoax happening also, I don’t need to polarize with it. It doesn’t add health to my mind or spirit. I also don’t want to lobotomize myself with ignorance so I will find a balance.

Speaking of polarizing, I found a content creator named Modern Warrior, I think that’s his name? He’s a First Nations leftist and even though I no longer subscribe to the leftist ideology it feels important to hear this man out. He calls everybody a colonizer that disagrees with his opinions. He believes in the whole all Caucasians are born into white supremacy rhetoric. Aside from that a lot of what he has to say does resonate with me. I am learning a thing or two. It feels important to listen to the other side and he’s pretty articulate so I will subject myself to the pain of hearing opposing opinions lol.

I am finally able to connect to everything again. I think that is why my anxiety was high. It made me feel like a stranger in my life. I couldn’t connect to my music, my hobbies and interests, to loved ones etc. Just felt like a shell of myself. My body expressed illness for a two weeks and I was bed ridden. Afterward, it felt like I was trying to return to the land of the living, so to speak.

Michael at work, the Gemini that is a dick to me, he struck up a conversation with me yesterday and he was very nice and cordial. He usually hazes me and picks on me the way an older brother would. I’m an older brother so I definitely know what that’s like. I won’t have to feel so tense at work now, since I know he has a good side. He is a classic Gemini, it won’t be hard to get on his good side but I don’t really feel a need to make that effort. He told me a bit about himself and his little world. He wanted to know how old I turned and then he started telling me what his life was like at 36.

Anyway, on with my day I suppose.