The New Me? in Help Me Please

Does loosing weight really make you a new person? or is it all ion your head?
All I know is that I do feel much better and I am not so embarrassed to be out in the real world. But so far people haven’t said much and I am not sure why. I mean people who see me all the time like hubby and the land lady when I need to ask her something.
I did tell hubby I was at goal and all he said was “that is good” and left it at that. And every once in a while I will ask him if I still look hot and he always asks me where that came from. I guess once you have been with someone for a lot of years it really doesn’t matter what you look like because your significant other loves you unconditionally no matter how thin or how fat you are. But then most people now a days don’t care about body image they care about your wit, your smarts and your determination. And how committed you are to the relationship or even the friendship.
I think we are all way too hard on ourselves and we never give ourselves enough credit for what we do and how well we do it. And it doesn’t matter what anyone says it’s us who has the final say of just how well we have done. And as we are going along we never stop and just look around at what we have already done we just focus on the whole picture and I think that is not a good thing. We need to look around and look at we have accomplished and be proud of what we did do. Like raise our children. Have you ever watched your children sleep and think what a wonderful human being they have turned into? Or you are talking to your child and they say something that you totally agree with? What they say and do is all because of you and what they learned from you as they were growing up.
The hardest and most wrenching thing to do to a child is to take their dad away from them. Especially when they are so young. I know this because my son was and still is without a dad and all these years I still feel like it’s all my fault. But it’s hard to have a family when one would rather watch sports and drink beer all day and not work. And these men tell you that they will not go to work to pay rent so you can have a stable home and family. it took 10 years for my sons dad to finally leave and when he did I felt so horrible but the one promise I made my son was that I would be with him forever. And I never really did tell my son why I got rid of his dad till he was much older and then he totally understood and told me I did the right thing. The first thing I did think of was who in my family was going to teach my son all the “man” things he is suppose to learn so I asked my brother and he did.
The one thing my brother did let my son do was get his hair colored orange because he was in a group at high school that was called “code orange” and they did improve. When I saw the orange hair I thought my son looked like a fire because he was that orange. I did not like it very much till it started to fade then it looked much better. And some of the clothes my brother bought for my son was really bright colors but my son had no preference in what he wore as long as it covered him. And to this day he still doesn’t care much about his clothes or what others think about what he wears. I wish I had the same attitude and then I would be way more comfortable then caring what others think.
The one thing I will not wear is spandex anything. I know you have to have a certain type of body and I will never have it no matter how much weight I am. And I do not like tank tops or halter type tops and I will not wear shorts anymore.

Onto something else....

Tonight dinner is going to be my famous spaghetti and meat sauce. I really like these one pot meals because clean up is just so easy. And I like the idea of me starting whenever I want so it can simmer and soak up all the flavors. But I do need to remember the bay leaves.
other then doing the dishes and some general clean up there is not much to do today so it’s going to be a very easy day.

Onto something else....
I need to stop here and get some more coffee....
Do have a great day and please feel sorry for me as I still have snow and the rain isn’t coming fast enough. And please come and get what you want because I want this snow gone.
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe, Behave.

Last updated January 09, 2022