Nothing Extraordinary in Current Events

My mind is creating an enemy construct and I can’t seem to stop it even though I am conscious of it. It wants easy street and creating a victim narrative is the easiest. My mind is using Toni to out-picture the mess that I am inside. I find myself absolutely turning Toni into a monster. I need to work on this. She made a comment today and I caught myself trying to blow it up into something that it wasn’t. I stopped myself, this time.

I am not sure what my body needed to detox but those symptoms are all gone. I just have a cough but that is to clear my throat. My ears and sinuses are finally draining. I do know what triggered the detox crisis, I went for a walk in the cold with wet hair. I hate the idea of people seeing me that weak but it is what it is, I’m only human. My body will express illness just like everybody else. I let it do what it wanted to do while I supplied it to the best of my ability. The problem was that my appetite was depleted and so I suspect that my body wanted me on a fast. The body gets to perform a lot of internal healing while on a fast. The only thing that I could get down without a fight was fresh fruit, vitamin C. To the people in my life, I was not healing I was under attack from a virus. Viral possession is the superstitious belief everybody is subscribed to. Germs are one-third of the unholy trinity of fundamental beliefs that we were programmed to believe via cartoons. I mean, there are indeed a lot more than three things that we were misled to believe fundamentally but there are three pillars designed to take us away from what is at the bottom of the rabbit hole. We were bombarded with endless animations of various things to create a litany of false fundamental beliefs that we will continue to believe as adults. Then we just want the reassuring life and will cleave to all propaganda that is readily available. Anyway, it’s really hard to communicate about what just happened with me to people because I’m in a different paradigm. Terrain theory refutes germ theory in every way shape and form but nobody wants to build a new fundamental belief system so they will just trust the $cience. This is unfortunate because that entire healthcare system is one of death and decay. We are being farmed for capital.

My anxiety is high today. I feel lost and out of sorts. I’m way off track with everything in my life, hoax pandemic pausing everything aside. My mother set me up to win though. She gave me one of her old laptops. I can finally perform what I need to perform. I didn’t have the ability to apply for jobs online, now I do. I think what has my mind twisted is that I want a completely new job altogether and not just a second one. My employers are getting drunk with power. They’re a big box store, a home hardware department store. They are trying to be public health warriors or something. There is no government agenda that they will not simp for. Now they are getting completely drunk on self-given power. They are trying to turn the store into a clinic and supply us all with rapid tests for con-19 that they want us all to do. They have all these random policies coming out of nowhere. Policies we never agreed to. Above and beyond the public health misguidance. Thou shalt not share food. Thou shalt not exchange holiday baking. Thou shalt not carpool to work. These people are insane. I will look around and explore my options this weekend. This job is not my forever one. Its shift structure is perfect should the world return to common sense again and I can go back to school and start my journey to become a Naturopathic Doctor/Apothecary.

What I want to be is at peace and in piece. To stand fully in my being and in my power. Legally and spiritually, they’re intertwined. I follow a lot of brilliant minds and the most brilliant of them all is making his rounds in interviews so I have been absolutely glued to what he has to say. He is giving me a lot of hope but my pessimism is getting in the way of that. I have to have faith. I have to have love and faith. Pardon my existentialism. Business as usual though.

I decided to clean today. Myself and my space. I cleaned up my eyebrows, my facial hair, the downstairs, my paws and claws and then I exfoliated everything from head to toe and now I am just basking in moisturizer and oils. I haven’t had the energy to do this in a while. My mother had me pick up my Christmas gifts yesterday also. She got me a fire stick situation where I can get all of the streaming services on. I will play with that this weekend. She was explaining to me how I can jailbreak everything. Legally. I am definitely interested. It’s fun when she surpasses me with technology. That fire stick is for my birthday next week. My Christmas gift is the smudge kit that I had on my Amazon wishlist. It came with a shell, a feather, three bundles of sage and some pretty twigs. I put it on my altar. My altar is what I set up today. I will attempt my first tarot reading this weekend.

Last night I started a Netflix series called The I-Land, I think. It’s definitely my kind of show. I look forward to finishing it tonight. I tried Prime’s Wheel of Time. It was so boring I couldn’t keep up with any of the character developments. The series was probably very good but it was just so done before. I binged the second season of the Witcher also. It was better than the first, in my opinion. I just binged the first season too. I didn’t read the books or play the games so all fan service is dead on me. I just wanted a good story and it delivered that enough. I think everything is trying to compete with Game of Thrones. Whatever though, this series did almost lose me forever because of the infanticide moment. Killing babies is just not entertainment. It’s obvious we are being desensitized to the killing of babies. Big Pharma, the radicalized medical religion, requires baby sacrifice. People consume the cells and tissues of babies via a syringe. Nobody bats an eye.

I am hoping that Toni works this Sunday. She didn’t last weekend and that ruined my plans to perform a coffee enema. I will aim for this weekend, it’s no big deal. I think that my coffee enemas are the most aggressive thing that I do to detox. I draw the line at urine therapy because I have limits. The experience is nothing I haven’t experienced before. It’s all mental. Anyway, I suppose I should go force-feed myself now. I wanted to test out this laptop. I’m very grateful for it.