you're not in my future in addressing the public

every failing of yours
will you realize too late
i can’t make it right
i don’t know why i wait

i have no self delusions
and no reasons to stay
yet i can’t move my legs
can’t get out of my way

you’re not in my future
it’s a pill that i’ve swallowed
but it’s extended release
always saying “tomorrow”

and each day that passes
i betray my own trust
am i building up courage
or just collecting dust