Wednesday - 25.09.13 in Your Face

Feeling a bit more positive about the finances this week after an insurance refund of $60 from Westpac. Won't last, though. It's the end of the month and M will likely pump me for a little bit extra money to pay his rent. I'm awful - I am now feeling mad at him because he collects the money, but can't even drop me a line. That's so unfair. It's not my money, it's ours and he is entitled to it. I am just so bitter and cranky right now.

It has occurred to me that he might need to distance himself in order to cope with being apart - maybe to pretend it's not happening by trying to live a normal everyday life. Who knows ... the bastard isn't around to tell me!

I have such a short fuse. This is not the best of me. I am ugly and selfish and angry because I am wounded.

Save me from this!