honest in Depression

So, I made my cut worse. I basically pierced it. In one side and out the other. I wanted to continue after I did it. I think it vould be getting infected. To be honest, I kind of want it to be. Infection means pain, and I want myself to be in pain. I want it to be difficult and to have something that's hurting me more than my own mind is.

God I sound demented. I'll explain better another day. Must sleep now. Thanks for the kind words over the last while ♥