not abnormal anger in Second 1st

I didn’t sleep well last night. I’d honestly spent most of the day angry :( and the bad energy followed me I guess.

I’d woken up to a message from Tamara at work. She’s been checking in on me with the COVID. She sent me a video about the vaccines 2 1/2 hours of a lady just talking. Now I’m willing to listen to all sides I promise. I’m not shutting out anyone BUT..... The video started with Ï lost my mother on Saturday because they’d put her on a ventilator. She didn’t need to be on a ventilator. She’d sent me a text saying they were going to do it and she flat lined a half hour later.”...... Honestly, at that point everything else she had to say was out of anger. It had been maybe a week since her mothers passing when she made the video so there is just a very slim chance of her having gone through the whole grieving process...... so it went on and she was all “mark of the beast” and “drugs are bad, food is medicine, it’s in the bible”..... but when she read nanobots in the ingredients of the vaccine I had to turn it off. I honestly found it sad that there weren’t opposing comments. I don’t mind that people are choosing not to get the vaccine because or religious beliefs. It is their choice. Rocky and I had chosen to not get it because basically don’t want to be lab rats? .... like there’s always something wrong with new game systems, so don’t be the first to buy them. You wait until the bugs are all worked out, then you get one. Anyways, ..... I don’t know how I’m going to deal with Tamara Friday...... like… she’s now in the category of crazy to me. NOW..... does this mean I don’t have beliefs that align with the crazy..... well no.... I do think food can be medicine but we’ve fallen so far away from the knowledge.... now we just cover symptoms and die of things we hardly knew were there. I’m in that boat.... Meniere’s, Vestibular Migraines, overweight..... everyone thinks they have answers and the information super highway is just too much to go on. shrugs.... do I think they made a vaccine with NONOBOTS..... rolls eyes I can’t even dignify my own question because of how absolutely ludicrous that is.

I spent most of the day yesterday angry about it.... and I’d only listened to an hour. She had links for info on her statements..... but again you can find anything on the internet..... she’d used a Webster’s dictionary from 1939 for the definition of vaccine. That’s how nuts she was. Like we don’t redefine things ever..... -in and of the cow.... -pertaining to cowpox..... maybe.... maybe in 1939 cowpox vaccines were the only vaccines?.... or in the least the definition hadn’t been changed yet. People like that.... I just can’t......

I guess I wasn’t angry all day..... I watched some anime with Rocky and worked on the neck support pillow (mostly worked).... I went to bed at 8 ish.......

I laid in bed scrolling FB and saw a post that made me extremely upset. Arhi was missing again. The beautiful, quiet, super sweet husky who visits every now and then. There was a $200 dollar reward for her return. I took the post to Rocky and got on my computer and started looking for other posts about huskies. Sure enough someone on Nextdoor had posted “found Husky” 3 hours prior..... no pics :( I’d posted 3 times in reply .... still have?..... pics?..... and finally I just posted a pic of Arhi and copy and pasted the post from FB.

Rocky kept an eye on Nextdoor for me and reported to the still awake me at around 9:30 saying that the man had replied to the Nextdoor replies with “The owners are on their way to come get the dog.” I’d been scouring 4 FB pages and I was angry because of the irresponsible parents. She’s always getting out. She gets out because she’s always in the backyard.... she gets bored and gets out. They don’t walk her..... they make me so angry.

Enough of that.... today we plan on groceries but it’s already 9:30 ..... I also wanted Rocky to call the guys about the oxygen equipment. They need to get the 5 tanks that we never used and the machine that Rocky needed at night (so loud :( ). They are all just taking up space now. I’m in cleanup mode? ..... I’m bothered that Sammy’s things are still here. We need to get things done. Groceries, oxygen, I’ve got Dr. appointments the next 2 days (cyst and OBGYN).... work over the weekend..... Monday’s good.... Tuesday–Sleep study.... Wednesday–return Sleep Study.....

I’m just waiting for Rocky to wake so we can get started..... sigh.... back to normal I guess....