Rant rant rant in Diary

I've had it with work. The way I feel right now I want to hand my notice in tomorrow. I'm so tempted, if I was further along with setting up my business and saving up, then I would do it. Just a small snippet from today.

• I'm fed up of wasting time I don't have by making giant flasks of tea and coffee for people who don't drink it because they've got their own individual flasks and can make it themselves in the canteen. Not one single person had any of it so I wasted my time making it, wasted resources by tipping it all down the sink, and wasted more of my time putting everything away again. This happens often, I don't know why I keep being asked to do it but I'm not doing it anymore.

• My boss, my only workmate and the new lady all went out for a nice long pub lunch today, charged back to the company. I wasn't invited because I was taking minutes in a meeting. They said they would have invited me but they didn't know how long I was going to be. Bullshit. They know fine well I have this meeting every other Monday and it never finishes before 1:30pm. Why we couldn't have done it tomorrow when we're all free, I have no idea. So I got my usual 30 minute break at my desk (Which was actually more like 20 minutes once you count all the interruptions) while they got 90 minutes in the pub, getting to know the new lady, and a free lunch.

• While I was in my three hour meeting, no one else picked up ANYTHING in the communal email inbox, as per usual. I mentioned to my boss, AGAIN, and she asked me to ask Emily to help, down in London. I rang her up, she said she would have a look. 40 minutes later, after I'd finished typing up my meeting minutes, she still hadn't done anything, so I picked up the one that said URGENT in the title. Marked my name next to it, checked it hadn't been done and did it. I then get a rather irate phone call from Emily "I thought we'd agreed I would do that one. I've just done it and then noticed you already did it, but we talked about it and I said I would do it."

Erm, no. You said you would have a look at the inbox, where there were LOADS of emails waiting to be dealt with. You hadn't marked your name next to it, nor had you actually done anything, 40 minutes after you said you would. It was knocking on 3pm and it was URGENT FOR TODAY so I thought I'd better do it. How was I to know you were going to pick that one, amongst all the others, when you hadn't marked your name next to it or actually did anything. You didn't notice that my name was already marked against it otherwise you wouldn't have duplicated it! She ended the call with "Fine." and hung up on me!

So even after asking her to help, following instruction from my boss, neither she or anyone else picked up a single email and it was left entirely to me yet again.

I'm absolutely sick to the back teeth of not getting ANY support from my boss or from anyone in my team. I don't like conflict but there's only so much shit I can take from people. I wasn't going to mention any of it in my resignation letter, but I definitely am now. It's all just a complete shambles.

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Well done if you made it all the way through yet another one of my rants. A couple of happy things. I had my third roller derby session on Sunday and learnt yet more new things. Honing my skills already learnt such as knee taps, knee slides and building up speed, we also learnt how to jump with both feet and hop on one foot (EEK!), cross over feet, skate in extremely close proximity to other people, avoid people when they fall and weave in and out of a moving line of people. I'm really amazed how much I can do already!

Also, my female zebra finch seems slightly better. The vitamins in the egg food must be helping as she can now get onto the lower perch with the help of the amazing staircase I fashioned out of cardboard. Her wing flaps seem stronger so hopefully she's making a recovery :o)