One Month in My life....I can't make this shit up!

I cant believe it’s been a whole month already. My heart hurts every day. I think of Mom constantly and the smallest thing will cause me to start crying. I don’t think the pain will ever go away, at least that’s what people tell me. I know she’s at peace. I know she’s not tired. I know she’s not in pain. But that doesn’t help. I want to be selfish. I want my mom!! My best friend. My go-to for advice. My shopping buddy. My support for everything. The person I could text when I was pissed off and would calm me down. I relied on Mom for so much, and learning to navigate life without her is the hardest thing I can do.
This has been such a long month. I can’t believe I have gone this far....only a lifetime more to go....