Sad - 11.05.14 in Your Face

It's Sunday, so what else is new? Except this time I am sad at receiving this email from my step mother, which is completely unfounded and out of the blue after not hearing from her for a month:

"Hahahahahha............I am soooooo happy. I think I am so smart. I am right. we live in different state.You also can made trouble in the back to me.you and your brother played facebook game on the internet.I am not stupid.I really don't know why your guys treat me like shit.I haven't done anything to your guys.Such an ass hole!Fuck up!!! I learned fuck,,fucker,fuck up,fuck off,fucking from your family. I don't trust you at all.You are the one that I told you everything more than anyone in your family and treat you better than anyone as well. I wished you happy birthday to you.You also can delete it. Such a sly bitch! You only speak nice and writing nice but never do anything nice.Your guys just don't want have happy life.Miserable all the time. Always taking never giving.Don't even have good heart and selfish never thinking about other people.hahahahhaha........ I will not crying anymore. No need cry for these stupid people. Thank you very much your guys to make me so strong and learned lot of negetive things in fucking Australia.I am so lucky to have very good heart man to love me very much in my life.hahhahahah....... happy happy happy!!!!

Before you came to gold coast. I said to Bob I want to transfer few thousand dollors to you when you go to America before to help you and you can move to New York early if you can.But you really made me very disappointed.I am thinking about to everyone.Nobody will remember.Someone treat me a litter bit good. I will give them my heart. but......."

English is her second language, so please don't be jerks about her spelling and grammar. I am just really saddened by this. I have done nothing to try and hurt this woman, I love her, and have tried really hard at having a good relationship with her, but in the past 6 months I just keep getting this crap from her. She thinks that my brother and I are making jokes about her on Facebook, which we're absolutely not. For example, I posted a news article and tag him in it (for example, a story on a sequel to "The Goonies") and tag him in it (because it's something he might like). The headline was, "Goonies never say die", and she interprets that as my brother and I having a dig at her because she has said that she wants to die because she's so unhappy. Um, no. Just no. It has absolutely nothing to do with her, and in fact, she removed me from her facebook list a month ago after that exact misunderstanding, so I can only assume that she's now snooping on my page via my father's account, and misinterpreting everything again.

So, I sent it to Dad and said that I wanted him to see what she writes to me, and that I am being attacked for something I haven't done. I said I am hurt and I don't know what to do because she obviously doesn't listen to anything I have been saying to her for months. I just can't deal with this right now, on top of everything else. She needs to either get some help for what are clearly pretty severe mental health issues, or she can just keep the eff away from me.

So I'm pretty fucking flat about that right now. I don't want to give up on someone I love, but I am not strong enough to carry it alone.

In other news, the wedding in Townsville was really nice. I don't feel like talking about it right now, though, so maybe another time.