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The trust of a newfound friend - 5/31/2005

         A man had a big dance comming up but the problem was he didn't know how to dance. So he went to a dance studio. The instructor told him to pretend that there is a 10 cent piece on his right shoulder and that he must try to touch the coin with his earlobe in time to the music. So the guy went home and practiced this all week long.

        The next week the instructor told him to do the same thing with his left shoulder.

        The next lesson he was told to pretend that there was a 50 cent piece on his penis and he had to flip it into the air and catch it again. 

        The week before the dance he had his last lesson. This time the instructor told him to pretend to bounce a $1 coin on his butt.

        The night of the dance came and he met a girl. They danced and danced and the whole time he was saying, "10 cents, 10 cents, 50 cents, a dollar." The girl was so impressed she asked the man to make love to her the same way that he danced. 

        So they got back to her house and went for it. "10 cents, 10 cents, 50 cents, a dollar. 10 cents, 10 cents... oh fuck it, a dollar seventy, a dollar seventy, a dollar seventy..."

Today was an okay day.  I went to work for my half day, and it's had the day-count one shorter towards my holidays, which start this coming Sunday.  So I've only got 4 more days to get through!  I know they will drag on.  I got my holiday pay slip today thank god so that will help a lot with them, it's gotta last me 5 weeks though! lol - oh well I'm sure I can do it, I'm pretty good with money when I wanna be.

So it was good to get out of work at 5pm.  Shocking traffic driving home though.  Every other time I finish at 9:30pm, so the traffic is nowhere near as bad.  Sometimes it takes half an hour to get home, and I'm only a 10 minute drive from work.  At the moment I'm just sitting here watching the French Open.  Absolutely love my tennis.  It is so cool.  Ivanovic is getting her arse kicked, which isn't good, but ah well, I guess she's not on a role like she was against Mauresmo 2 days ago.  Such a pity.  I loved the match between Safin and Rober...whatever his name was.  I can't believe Safin's out of it though, but it was a well fought effort.  Sharapove vs Henin-Hardenne - omg I can't wait for that one!

I'm really not in an effort to type today.  It really wasn't that eventful.  Andrew rang me tonight, organising a time for us to meet up, which will be next Tuesday.  That's gunna be interesting.  He's apologised to me for the way he'd been acting and asking me to send him any gay porn I had, cos he's now 'straight'.  I guess I'll see how he is when I meet him.  If he tries to judge me about being gay then there probably won't be a friendship to begin with.  He's a gay Christian, and is struggling to find the 'way of life' that God wants him to live, and that is to be straight.  There's a special girl he really likes.  I know it's complicated, and the only reason I can reason with him on how he's feeling is because I'm a gay christian and know he he feels.  I just know I'm gay.  He know's he's straight but is struggling with it.  It's hard to say - most would say if you have any feelings toward guys, you're gay, no doubts about it, but when you're as determined for God or even more for God than anything else, you know he can do anything.  So I'll hear Andrew out next Tuesday.  He told me he's not going to judge me or try to change me, and I can say right now that the moment he does there's gunna be some real bitch-fights going on.  Yeah, nice me in a bitch-fight.  I'll probably crumble knowing me, but I'll just walk away, I have more dignity than that.  It's like I'm predicting the future already.  But if I don't meet this guy, I'll never know what could actually be a friendship, and gay guys always feel like they need new friends.  Well I do.  And being as shy as i am when it comes to meeting new people, when I get the opportunity I really shouldn't pass it up.  If he respects me, I'll respect him.  I'll probably see him as gay when I meet him, but I'm sure he'll prove me otherwise, and then I'll just see him as the friend I should, not by his sexual orientation.  I'm sure he's a really nice guy.  I mean he's obviously going through a lot, and if I can just be myself without saying too much or too little (like I tend to do), it might actually work.  I told Luke about it all, and he didn't seem to care much, i guess I gotta do something to start my holidays off.  I'm still not sure when I'll be heading off to Toowoomba, but hopefully after I meet up with Andrew.  We're meeting outside a Maccas - hahaha, yeh real sophisticated, right? :) I'm a bit nervous about it, as I always am with meeting new people.  He seems like a happy guy who talks a fair bit though, so maybe it'll even out my shy quietness.  I tend to get more confident the more I get to know a person.  Like I wait til I know I cna trust them, and then reveal more and more of myself.  I guess it's like a protective sorta thing.  It's me, I can't help it.  Ooo Sharapove vs Henin-Hardenne is on - hopefully this will be be good!   Petrova kicked Ivanovic's butt!  Oh that was sad.  Anyway cya, not as much to read this time :) Sorry guys, I get on a role and I guess I keep going. 

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Gay Christian.

No offence or anything, but I always thought of the term as something of an oxymoron. Like "bitter-sweet" or something.

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Sorry. Had nothing else to say. [Ness, Interrupted] 5/31/2005 9:21:59 AM

I just wanted to say, that previous noter...gimme a break. There are many many gay christians around. It's not an oxymoron. It's a revised religioun...revised as in equality instead of prejeduce. God, knows nothing about sexuality when it comes to faith and love. Keep in mind, he made us too... [SeNtInAlLoVe] 5/31/2005 10:36:42 AM

I also wanted to add...god bless you and good luck with that guy. I hope he realizes god loves everyone, weather you're pink, blue, gay, str8...lesbo...even oxymorons are loves by god [SeNtInAlLoVe] 5/31/2005 10:37:37 AM

ofcourse you can, you're already on mine :) [SeNtInAlLoVe] 5/31/2005 11:18:56 AM

yessss i love how you watch tennis! i was just watching the davenport match! haha. and good luck meeting your friend! i always get nervous meeting new people too...haha. xox

[[disco-lemonade]] 5/31/2005 11:25:12 AM

I was confused for a minute. Any time I see the name Andrew I think of my Andrew and I'm like, "what do you mean, he's NOW straight?!" And then him asking you for gay porn ... heart rate returning to normal [Orange Blossom] 5/31/2005 2:52:45 PM

Sorry!! I haven't noted you in a long time. It says why on my entry. Umm, on your previous entry, I only want to say this. OMG, do you know how much I would LOVE to live where you do? I mean, all those gay guys around there, of course. I'm (as of last Friday) the only gay guy in my school. There used to be 2 others, but one moved, and the other graduated. It's sad really.... lonely too. 5/31/2005 3:25:14 PM

And that little poem there... I like it! It's going to be one of my favorites now! [chikinstukrakir] 5/31/2005 3:27:09 PM

agh, i can understand, i tried making my self straight, it worked for a while,

bleh, it was a problem though, he probably has it harder though,what with his love for god and such [penfifteen] 6/1/2005 8:23:19 AM

RYN: Oh, I'm not calling you an oxymoron. I'm just saying... well, never mind. It's difficult explaining such things without being branded a racist or religious fundamentalist or something.

800 mill? INDIA? You crazy? :) We passed the 1 billion mark AGES ago!! [Ness, in a funk.] 6/1/2005 9:19:49 AM

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