Lurking in the mist in The OpenDiary (OD) Days!

lurking in the mist - 3/24/2005

I've been on OpenDiary a few times now but haven't written anything, just checking up on everyone's updates and stuff.  I used paypal to update to OD+ but it's only got a few things extra that I can see, oh well I guess I just gotta explore more.

I've been in the weirdest mood today, I've been on parnoia overload.  Just so much stuff going through my head, like what would it be like if Luke and I had remained friends instead of going out and would it be better that way and stuff like that, are we meant to be boyfriends, and it doesn't even really make sense because he's the perfect example of a perfect boyfriend - good-looking, Christian, easy-going, playful, sense of humour and down to Earth.  So much more I could say about him.  I just doubt my abilities I guess.  Today is our 3-month anniversary, apparently its a big one, so Luke says, yet we didn't do anything special as we both worked all day and I got home and went straight to the bedroom to ponder my thoughts whilst Lukey chatted on MSN.  He came in to ask if I was okay - I said I was, and I guess I wasn't, just didn't wanna scare him with my paranoia...then again i wonder if it is that.  I shouldn't be thinking like this today, not today of all days.  Maybe I'll sleep on it.  The mind is a strange phenomenon. 

 just thought these looked pretty...

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[♥ belladonna] 3/23/2005 10:58:27 AM

Don't you hate it when your mind just goes on overload and you just overly think about every little thing? My head's been there lately. sigh

hugs [American Sweetheart] 3/23/2005 11:09:01 AM

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