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if you love something set it free... - 3/17/2005

"If you love something set it free, if it comes back, it was meant to be"

That's what Mick said to me last night.  Yes I met up with Mick for Coffee at the Aspley Coffee Club.  It's where we used to go to chat and stuff, and he rang me asking if i wanted to, and me not wanting to be rude said i would, so i did.  It was interesting.  He talked about a lot of stuff and he really opened up to me more than i think he ever had before.  He explained how he couldn't believe he let me go and that he pushed me away too much.  He said he respected the fact that I've moved on and is happy that I'm happy.  He said nowadays he has a saying, and that's the saying above, "If you love something, set it free.  If it comes back, it was meant to be."  I must say I think that's a pretty cool saying.  Whether he's thought of it because of what happened with me or not I dunno, but i'm presuming so.  Towards the end of the night as the shop was closing up, I was looking into his eyes and I was tryin to tell if he was crying - it kinda looked as though they were tearing up but he was holding them back really well.  I mean, he explained so much stuff to me, how he'll never forget me and how he 'loved' me more than he loved his ex boyfriend of 4 years.  I mean gee, I can have an effect on someone like that?  After we both hugged and left back home, he sent me a message thanking me for meeting up with him and that he felt so much better having told me everything.  He asked if I wanted to meet up again tonight, and I hestiated for like an hour before I replied, saying that, yes i would.  I mean, I dunno, I don't wanna lose the guy as a friend, nor does he, but he did say he doesnt know if we can just be friends cos of how he feels, but he knows I'm with Luke and knows that we live together, and he said to me last night, "sometimes i think about that, and think that could be you and me."  I said to him I didn't know what to say, cos I didn't!  I know how he feels about me, but my life is concentrated on Luke.  Even if I was single, I couldn't go back to Mick.

Luke's in Toowoomba until Friday.  He doesn't know I've met up with Mick for coffee, but I'll tell him when he gets home.  Luke doesn't like Mick one bit, that's why I felt bad about going, but Luke gives me free will, and it was just coffee.  I mean I wasn't going to go, then I thought I'm not bad I'm not gunna do anything, and even if Luke hates Mick, Luke would still trust me with the guy, right?  I'll explain everything to Lukey when he gets home and might even send him a message today saying i'm gunna meet up with him for coffee tonite again, and ask him if he wants me to.  I don't wanna cause a big bitchfight between the two of them.  Mick even said he doesnt wanna message or call me only when Luke's not here, and I said "I don't think he minds you messaging me, just as long as it's not about you loving me".  I apologised to Mick for sending that harsh message, but said if I didn't tell him to stop calling Luke would've picked up and ripped shreds off him.  And he would.  I love my Lukey-boi, and Mick has to understand that I guess.  This is how life works, I don't wanna seem to be the bad guy here. 

Well I gotta get ready for work.  Love you all!!

-Matt

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yeah - keeping everything open and above board is always the best way. [TheBlindArcher] 3/16/2005 9:53:10 PM

Please be careful. This Mick sounds very persuasive and I don't want him hurting you any more than he already has. Don't delve into past when you have such an incredible future with Luke ahead of you. hugs [American Sweetheart] 3/17/2005 11:36:06 AM

hugs

[♥ belladonna] 3/18/2005 10:51:02 AM

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