17 - 11 - 17 in My Dream Journal

emphasized textThey had taken AJ away from me and somehow I had found a kid who looked exactly the same as him. It wasn’t AJ though and eventually I realised that and realised that taking this child would only make things worse and it wouldn’t even by my son. So I got involved with these people to try and get him back. One of the people there was the girl who played Buffy (In Buffy the vampire slayer). There were some bad men that we were looking into and I found a big box of fake passports and ID’s. There was another guy involved with my team in getting AJ back who was helping me. He was madly in love with me in this dream but I didn’t feel the same.

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As I am writing this (27-06-21) and after having re-read all of my dream in the diaries. I am starting to feel a familiar feeling about the kind man in this dream who is in love with me. He appears in other dreams of mine as the months go buy but it never occurred to me until now that he is the same man. I would like to add a few other diary entries to this post that also include the man. Some of the entries are quite short and that’s why I originally was not going to include them but I now feel the may be of some interest to myself and this project of noting down my dreams. Please note I do not have much information on the significance to this man, only that I feel towards him the same energy that I feel towards my best friend Edwardo. He is sometimes named in the dreams but he doesn’t have Edwardo’s name so I know them not to be the same person or him visiting me in an astral realm. He is someone else, someone my mind has for some reason created and it is strange I am now figuring this out when my real life friendship with Edwardo is hanging in the balance because of his stupid fucking horrible girlfriend Sabrina. Anyways enjoy the entries of the mystery man. Please note I am a gay woman although I was “straight” for many years so I did engage in sexual activities with men but I never full enjoyed it unless it was in my dreams. To which I usually had after falling asleep - after I had masturbated to lesbian porn when my boyfriends left. So take these dreams not as a romance novel but as a weird freaky notion that I need my best friend so much my brain has cooked up one in my sub conscious. (Yes cause that’s not weird! I need help I know)

2-11-17
I had sex with a mystery guy, he stopped me before I finished and I sucked him off. I then tried to fuck him again and he said no so I threw him out of my house.

6 - 1 - 18

At first was at some wedding and I went with the mystery dream guy that keeps appearing. At one point we were inside a horse and carriage and people were waving and smiling at us. We were actually in a long line of horse drawn carriages but I’m not entirely sure where the location was we were headed.

25 - 1 - 18
I was getting married to a man named Mark but I was having an affair with someone else. (Mark is the mystery guy)

26 -1 - 18
Mark was back, I don’t know if we were married or not but we were a couple.

30-1-18
I was in a relationship with the mystery man.