In the Pit in I don't know....

I am sitting in a pit. I don't quite know why, either. My husband has a job. I'm glad for that, but it's going to be a hard adjustment with money. I'm wondering if the progesterone is affecting my mood more this time. I remember feeling very dark and ugly on it years ago. It's a different progesterone, though. It's natural vs synthetic. I know I am tired and my allergies are kicking my tail. I'm also feeling a smidge lonely. Each day I seem to slip a little more. It's hard right now and I dread some of what is coming up. Eric got us food stamps and it makes me incredibly angry. Partly because he did it and partly because he got that before he thought of putting the kids on state insurance. Mother's Day is messed up this year because of the kids being in the church spring program. They have to practice that afternoon so we can't go to Hot Springs. As upset by it as I am, I am also not upset by it. I don't want to see 2 of my cousins. They were so very nasty and we haven't spoken since Jan 3. Fine with me. It hasn't hurt us one bit. I just don't want to deal with them or their drama. Oh well. Maybe I'll feel better in a few days.