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It seems to me that everyday I am above ground and standing on the floor and then heading to the bathroom my day is always the same and it seems that it’s the same stuff being done but maybe in a different order. I just wish I had the smarts to just do what needs to get done instead of telling myself that I need to do it and talking about doing it for the next two hours. All that time I waste is just horrible. But I do eventually get it done and then I go onto the next thing.
What would happen if you had to change your routine? Like retire from your job? Would you be totally lost? What would you do for that time you are not at work?

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I am thinking about writing my son another e-mail and asking him what more I need to do to have the relationship I really want and to be able to talk to him whenever I want.
it’s really horrible to be thinking about someone you really love and can’t talk to them and ask them simple questions like how are they? or what is new in their life. but I am always afraid that I will ask questions that are too personal or none of my business and that really hurts.
The saddest thing about having family is not talking to them. I really dislike it when they remember the bad stuff you did or didn’t do and not even sending an e-mail to say hi and make sure you are still around. it seems like I am the one always starting the conversation and I don’t think that is fair. But then I have family who is older then me so maybe it’s me that needs to start things because I am younger? But my son is the younger one so I figure it’s his turn to be the one to say something first. I hate how the relationship with family just dwindles down to a happy birthday or a happy holidays and that is it.

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Well now that I have started to think about communicating to my son I am going to stop here and write him an e-mail and get the rest of what wify things I need to do today.
be kind, be calm and be safe and behave.

Last updated May 11, 2021