Bad few days in General musings

Went out yesterday, just to food shop and wanted to cry the whole time. Didn't talk to hub at all. Doing a project on the computer for our car club today, but tears keep welling up. I ate breakfast but have felt rather nauseous since. This time of year just has so many memories for me of F and he hasn't called since Monday...not that I blame him, I was monosyllabic and told him how I'd cried hysterically the night before and sorta hung up on him, at least I didn't say goodbye when I hung up. I know it is probably better if he doesn't call, but I am just so miserable.