Oh well attitude. in Since OD is shutting down....

Last week was probably the best week I've had in months and it's because I was at home and in bed by 11pm every night. I like that shit. Saturday was crazy because I signed on to work for 3 hours and it turned into 13!! I ended up getting a gift certificate for HuHot because they appreciated me staying from open to close so that made me feel good. I got the car on Friday and for whatever reason, he had fucked with the driver door panel so I had to take it in this morning to have him fix it. It seems to be okay now. I was really pissed that he didn't ask for approval or permission and went around and dinked around with it in the first place and I'm going to mention it when I go in to make my damn car payment in a couple of days. That really bothers me because after what I went through with that one place with my last car, I have to feel like I'm calling the shots and I know what's going on no matter what. When it comes to my car, I HAVE to feel like I'm in control.

I'm not going to be getting food stamps anymore. I forgot to report my job and according to them, I make too much money. I'm really bummed about it but I'll just have to learn to only buy what I need and do what I can to make it last. I'm also trying to decide if I want to give my recliner back so I can better afford a gym membership. Once school lets out in a couple of weeks, I plan to start hitting the gym and getting this fat off my ass. I'm so sick of being so big and I need to get back into a healthy lifestyle. I'm not sure how much it will be a month but I need to get that figured out. I'm sad about food stamps because it really helped me out but now I just have to accept it.

I ran into a friend the other day at Walmart and we were talking about how I don't get to see my niece and she agreed with me that it's better I have the 'oh well attitude' because that way I'm able to put it in the back of my mind and go about my day without getting all depressed and angry. I really miss that kid and sometimes I think of her and will burst into tears but for now, I just have to let it be. Deep down, I hold on to hope that maybe my brother will let me see her at some point but because of his girlfriend, I know that the chance of that is slim and impossible. The whole thing just stinks but I've learned that 'oh well' isn't ' I don't care' it's more ' I can't do anything about it so for my own peace of mind and my sanity I have to let it be' type of deal.

Homework has become the biggest headache. I honestly can't wait for the semester to be over so I can have a few months of a break. None of my homework is extremely hard because I'm kinda smart but I'll get stumped on one thing and then I'm unable to go any further. I'm already late on one assignment but my teacher knows I'm struggling with it. I was hoping to have it done today but it's not going to happen. I worked on it for about an hour this morning and I'm completely stumped. I'm going to have to wait until class tomorrow and have her help me. I'm about halfway on the new assignment so that's really good. It's due on Friday and that shouldn't be an issue getting it turned in on time.

The weather has taken another drastic turn because apparently 6 months of winter just has not been nearly enough! It's cold, WINDY and absolutely miserable outside, again. I have never been so sick of winter time in my whole life and I'm ready to pack my shit and leave this fucking place. I know that I definitely have that weather depression and it's been trying to get me down and I hate it.