Life. in Since OD is shutting down....

It's been a pretty good week. I've gotten plenty of sleep every night, showered almost every day and didn't get too stressed about anything. I dropped the car off this morning and ended up having to pay for the repairs which were $100. The place that sold it to me got kinda rude with me because when I went to pick up my car, they just handed me a receipt so I didn't know I was supposed to pay for it or if the car lot was going to so when I walked in to make my payment, I was asked about it. It really bothered me that he was kinda rude. I don't think he tried to be but damn! I would never try to rip someone off so I didn't really appreciate the shitty attitude but then he came outside and showed me how to run my trip odometer thing because he wants me to be able to see what I'm getting for mileage. I owe around $4,000 on my car now and I've only had it 3 months. I owe a little more than half on it now. I know that I'm doing good but I'm just hoping by the end of summer, I'll only owe a little left that I can pay off with my student loans. It just bothers me not owning my car. I also told him my goal of wanting to find a different job by the end of summer.

So, yesterday something happened that made me feel less invisible. A manager pulled me aside and handed me a small bright green envelope. Well, I opened it later on and it had a card in it from my boss telling me he appreciates my work with a $20 and 2 $5 gift certificates to Olive Garden. It really made me feel recognized for my hard work and it felt really good to be acknowledged for something positive but then I realized that he had just found a sneaky way out of giving us raises. I do appreciate the card and everything but honestly, I would have preferred a raise because that would have gone a helluva lot further. Again, I would like my financial situation to be so much better with my car at the end of summer so I can look at getting into something else. I really do like my job because I get along with everyone, I feel liked there, I know what I'm doing and I enjoy making tips as well.

Oh and then......I think it was Tuesday...the girl that I've hung out with outside of work and I had an issue. My contact in my left eye was KILLING me that day. I don't know if it was dirty or something had gotten in my eye but I could barely see!! I walked into work and apparently she had walked right by and I didn't even notice because not only was I not paying attention but my eye was itching, burning and watering. Well, she BLEW it WAY out of proportion and now we don't even speak! She texted me asking what she did wrong and blah blah blah and I told her over and over I was in the worst pain of my life and it had NOTHING to do with her. Well she continued on saying that she didn't know what she did and it's not like me to walk right by and not say anything and no matter what I said, she was not content so I just left it alone and then the next night she wouldn't talk to me but texted me asking when I got off work and asked if I had seen a particular movie so I answered her and haven't heard anything since. She even asked if we could just forget about what had happened and I said sure but now we are not speaking. I tried a couple of times yesterday and she ignored me so I plan to leave it the fuck alone. I am honestly glad that I don't have friends because shit like this happens and I either never hear the end of it or people just don't talk to me ever again. She was cool and all but I'm happy that we aren't speaking because now I don't have to worry about her wanting to hang out because I don't care to hang out with anyone anymore. Now that I don't work as much I can actually enjoy my time off and I want to spend it doing whatever I want and that doesn't include hanging out with anyone. My time away from work is very precious to me and I don't want to spend it hanging out with people that probably won't be around for too long anyway and she's the best example of that. I also have some resentment for her getting her kid all excited about me hanging out with them over the weekend when I didn't say that I would.

I realize that I need to be by myself, for now anyways. It bothers me that things with her are tense at work but I'm sure that we will either start talking again or we'll both get comfy with things the way they are. She was cool and all but honestly, not really someone I cared to hang out with. It was more I liked having someone to bitch about work with.

I got a bunch of stuff done today that I needed to and it just feels soooooooo good to be able to just sit here and relax. I'm not done with my homework because I was getting frustrated so I went and got a couple of things at the dollar store. The mechanic messed with my door panel and made it worse so that bothers me but if it continues but I'll have to call them on Monday. I noticed that my mini speaker is gone and so is my USB port. I have a pretty good idea who took them and it's a boy at my work. There's no proving it and I'm not going to accuse anyone but I made sure to have brought EVERYTHING in from my car that I don't want to go missing and hopefully that will prevent any further issues. I'm really sick of people stealing from me because I feel like I've been stolen from enough in the past few months and even thought it will only cost me $15 to replace the 2 things that are gone, I shouldn't have to just because people have sticky fingers.