Income tax. in Since OD is shutting down....

So my Mom mentioned my income tax while she was here on Saturday. I reminded her that I can’t even file until the 12th to which she said, “well that’s okay, it only takes about 10 days to get it back and you should have it by the 24th” and it’s like well that’s nice but why the fuck do you care?! Them motherfuckers still owe me $160 that hasn’t been repaid and I let her know I’m going to bring it up until it’s repaid! Where the fuck do these people think that my brother and I just owe them! We’ve both given them thousands in the past few years when we didn’t have to and never got any of it back!

I plan to just lie and say either my kid’s Dad claimed my kid and now I have to send paperwork to the IRS or say I’m waiting for the IRS to send me my transcripts because I put my AGI in wrong, which I’ve done in the past. I’ll just keep saying this shit and if she keeps bugging I’ll have to come right out and say I’m not giving you ANY MORE MONEY!!! I don’t know where they think I can just hand out money knowing I’m never getting it back when I don’t have a job and I’m not getting child support!!

She should be getting unemployment again for awhile so hopefully by the time I do get my taxes, she’ll have her own money and nothing else will be said about mine. I desperately need to order my car parts and get someone to put them in for free or cheap before my damn car breaks down. I find it absolutely astonishing that they can’t even TRY to have relationships with people and not expect shit. I just can’t wrap my head around how entitled and moochy they are!!

I look at my own kid and know I would never treat her the way my parents have treated me. I couldn’t imagine pulling any of this shit on her. It’s just crazy how after all these years not only have they not stopped mooching, but just keep on doing it!! I know if I used people like this, I would absolutely understand when I’m kept at a fucking distance!! I will never understand why they are like this and I don’t care but I’ll be damned if my daughter or myself suffer for it! WE are NOT going to be affected by their poor money management or their wastefullness!

Anyways, daughter went to daycare for a few hours today and I’m going to see if they can take her again on Thursday. I decided that she needs to start getting out more and being around other kids. I know she loves being home with Mom but she also likes going there as well. I do plan to keep looking for a job because I truly miss working and getting out of the house. I just gotta find a job where it’s not going to take over my entire life again. My last job drained the shit out of me and I just can’t deal with that again. I want to start planning on getting my fat ass back to the gym and being able to go out on Saturday nights.

I had a lady call yesterday from a coffee shop that I applied to about 4 months ago and wanted me to come for an interview at 5:30 last night and made sure to tell me that they had “multiple applicants” which let me know I probably didn’t have much of a chance to get the job so I didn’t go. It was snowing, windy, and cold. I wasn’t about to take my daughter out in that shit!! People don’t understand that I have to have more notice than 3 hours because I have arrange for childcare and get my daughter and myself ready. I also have to pay for a sitter so I wasn’t going to do that when it sounded like it was just going to be a huge waste of fucking time!!

It’s been pretty cold lately and that drains the shit out of me. It was sunny today but it gets cold super quick when the sun starts going down. I can’t wait for Spring. It really hasn’t snowed much this Winter at all which is super shocking because it’s normally snowing pretty consistently every go around.