Easter in Riverdale

Easter

Easter was good. Went to the pet show w my mom than had dinner.

Just cooking some shrimp right now and later going to cook salmon or something.

I have to buy some clothes for this banquet server training I'm going to do. I almost don't wanna do it but my heart says give it a try could really like it or it could lead to a job or whatever. So I'm going to do it I guess.

I woke up crying this morning Nd let myself cry more. Family dreams once again. About my sister and me fighting. It was a bad dream at first than became good but even when it was good I still questioned it because in reality I know good only meant I was obeying or submitting not because anyone truely made amends or apologized or really cared. But my sister hugged me it was nice. In real life me and my sister hadn't talked in two years now. It's sad that I can't work things out w most of my family but crazy is what crazy does. They haven't changed the damage has been done and I can't go back to crazy making brainwashing abuse feeling like shit and less than anymore.

I have A lot more energy lately which helps because I have a lot to do really.