Dreams down the tubes. in Since OD is shutting down....

All of my dreams have been knocked down one right after another and after tonight, my biggest dream is just getting through the fucking day. I go to work earlier and it's a pretty slow night and I'm gracious to leave at 8:30. Well, come to find out I got passed over for shift leader. I have the GM come outside with me and she said the boss decided to give it to some other chick without even consulting her and he still hasn't told her about it. I feel like the past 6 months of going into work early, staying late, coming in on my days off and working like a fucking dog has been all for nothing. I still make minimum wage and I'm thinking it's time to move on. I don't have a class tomorrow so after my dentist appointment, my co-worker and I are going to get some applications put in. She's just as over that fucking place as I am. I mean, I knew that me becoming a shift leader was a long shot but to be passed over by someone who's been there maybe 2 months and doesn't know how to do even a quarter of the shit I do is probably the biggest fuck you I could have ever gotten. I've just been so sick of everything lately and after learning that my dream of becoming a shift leader where I would make more money has been given to someone else, I could care less to go back there tomorrow. I've tried so hard to just deal with it because I like that I'm comfortable there socially and I know what I'm doing but there's plenty of other jobs I could do where I'd make more money and not have to do half the shit I do now. I would also like to be in a place where I wouldn't have to rely on fast food and I could start planning to get this weight off me. I've learned that I'm replaceable and working hard is for the fucking birds. I will NEVER again work as hard as I have in the past 6 months, especially with no fucking raise!! That's another thing, we will never get raises either.

I know that I will more than likely not find anything right away and I'm not looking to start anything new until school lets out but I'm going to get some applications put in tomorrow. I just can't stay at that place much longer or I'm going to lose my fucking mind and end up getting fired. I just can't deal with certain managers anymore, making shit for a fucking wage and put up with rude fucking customers anymore. I'm more excited than nervous to find a different job. I like where I'm at because I know what I'm doing and I like most of the people I work with but lately, I've been thinking it's time for a fucking change. I'm just sick of being a thankless job where I'm never going to get ahead and scared that if the car breaks down, I don't make enough to fix it and I just can't be on foot at this point. I planned to be there until my car gets paid off which is a year away but plans have changed. I just don't think I'm going to be happy until I get the fuck out of there. I just can't deal with being shit on by that place much more.