5w4d in The REAL Baby Journey!

So things seem to be going well! I've been quite nauseous most of the weekend and my food aversions are out of control. I'm being repulsed by some of my favorite foods and as sad as that may make me, I'm taking it all as a good sign and reveling in it. :)

I was doing some research and blogging online with some other women with my uterine condition and they all pushed to get into a high risk specialist as soon as possible for an early ultrasound (to make sure it's not ectopic) and to get them on board. The fertility doctor I've been seeing for my Clomid prescription has said he can care for me throughout my pregnancy but he has no experience with women with one kidney, one fallopian tube and only half a uterus. While I'm happy to help him learn, I don't want something to be missed or done inappropriately because of his inexperience. This is my BABY we're talking about! :)

Thus, I called and formally requested a consult for the perinatologist today. They entered it and I will get a call back tomorrow to set up a first appointment. No promises I'd even get in any sooner than my current first ultrasound date of 5/9 but I at least wanted to get the ball rolling. My miscarriage rate is extremely high the entire pregnancy and my preterm labor rate is over 60%. Many women with this situation go on bed rest relatively early and often need a cerclage to sew their cervix together to help with the preterm labor risk. The chances of a healthy, normal baby after going full term and ended by a normal vaginal labor are less than 50% so while I'm optimistic because it helps me cope, I also know there are huge risks. All of that being said, I'm just happy to be here and pregnant (!!!) and taking it a day at a time. Not much more I can do than that. :)

As a happy side note to all of this, awful statistics and scary stories aside, this is by far the most comfortable and least anxious I have been since we started trying in Nov 2012. I finally feel 'not broken' and even if this (God forbid) doesn't work out, I know I can get pregnant. That is HUGE. I know I can feel the symptoms and my HCG can increase and hopefully, I can learn that I can carry a full term baby and be one of the happy statistics that reports back to a newly pregnant, intimidated, scared young mother that good things DO happen to women with unicornuate uterus and we CAN make healthy, normal babies after uneventful and safe pregnancies.

So chins up over here, resting and relaxing and listening to my body and trying to just let it be. Whatever shall be, shall be, right? Rob is cuter than ever - every morning he says "Good morning, Kelsey! Good morning, baby!" and every night, "Good night, Kelsey! Good night, baby!" When I come home after work, he says "Thank you for taking such good care of my baby again today!". It's pretty much adorable :)

Here's to a happy and healthy and uneventful and calm and quiet next nine months. Positive thoughts. Positive prayers. Positive positive positive. :)