Interesting Developments (Possible TMI) in Ultimate Randomness

Well, here it is two days after what was supposed to be my date with D. Yeah, you read that right. Unfortunately, she has to reschedule. One thing I can say about her is she pretty much never has time to take a breath, and in the process, she had forgotten that it was Easter weekend, so she had her kids to take care of. But I did ask her when she thought she might be able to go out, or if it was wait and see, and she said she hoped next weekend would be better, so here is to hoping. Though, after a long conversation, which I'll go into in a little bit, I do know that she isn't looking to date right now and she wants us to hang out as friends first. But as I told her, I am perfectly alright with that. So that was Friday afternoon. So I did eventually make it home from work and all that later on in the night. All that being, I give this older guy I work with a ride home on the weekend nights (Friday, Saturday, Sunday), because he lives a ways away from work and our boss was fleecing him on gas money, so I told him just to call me and I would get him home. Payment? He can throw me a couple bucks here and there if he has it, but my car gets really good gas mileage, so it isn't a big deal for me. I do it because he has listened to all my crap about the marriage for months and because I am just that good of a guy. Lol, not to brag or anything. Anyway, since we couldn't go out, I had an idea. I thought it would be fun, since this was a get-to-know-each-other night, to message her and give her the opportunity to ask me any three questions she wanted to and I would answer without question. And if she was up for it, the same would go for me. So at about 10 o'clock, I messaged her and told her my idea. She seemed up for it, but was having trouble coming up with something to ask, so I started with an easy question by asking her about what her three favorite things to do are when she actually has a moment to spare. Those apparently include cuddle time with her kids, hiking, and hanging out with friends. So she pretty much asked me the same question. That ends up being entertainment in general (video games, movies, tv, etc...), hanging out with my friends, of which there are few, and writing. I got a little into what kind of stuff I like to write about, which she thought was pretty cool. I also mentioned my competitive streak, but explained to her that since I also enjoy teaching people anything I can, that is part of the reason I figured bowling would be fun, especially after she mentioned how she usually gets beaten. So the next thing I asked her was if she was surprised when I asked her out and if it was a pleasant surprise or just completely out of nowhere. This was the point that she told me that it was not a bad surprise, but she wasn't ready to start dating again, she us going out was going to have to be a friends thing. I let her know that I was perfectly fine with that and I would not put any pressure on for more. Then things took an interesting turn. I am not sure what possessed me to mention that half of the questions I could come up with at that point were completely inappropriate, and I blamed my y-chromosome, but I said it anyway, which apparently was entertaining, because she said it was awesome. But I steered back to normal, and since I know she is into photography and used to do it for a living, I asked her what her favorite things to take photos of are, which is any kind of nature shot, but that she usually ends up taking pictures of women, who want all sorts of photoshopping done to them. She said most women, including herself, are fussy about it. I told her that she definitely has no reason to be fussy. She finally asked me what I planned to do when I was done with college, whether I would move back home or stay here. I told her that, while I do miss home, my life is here and I can be of more use here than somewhere else.

Somewhere in the middle of all this, I pointed out to her that, since it's been four months since I had any kind of physical activity, it was entirely possible that I may say completely inappropriate things and that she should just tell me to shut up if I do. And then I went for it. I told her that I was going to tell her something and she was going to have to process it and then promptly forget it. She said ok, and then I told her straight out that I have had a crush on her pretty much since I met her and would never have said anything about when I was with my wife, but since that is over, I figured "What the hell?" I also told her that I am an incredibly patient person and am perfectly happy with the just friends thing, but if she ever decides she would like to give things a shot and I haven't been scooped up, all she has to do is say the word. Until then, if I get out of line, tell me to shut up. She was apparently completely surprised by this, but was really flattered and that it was excellent to know how I really felt, but we should try the friend thing first, which I told her was just fine with me. And it is. I am thrilled that she would even want to spend time with me and get to know me better. And it isn't like she shut down the possibility of something more eventually, just not right now. Well, I went on to apologize beforehand because I will more likely than not be complimentary, and that I really will find something beautiful about any woman I meet, it just happens that she has alot of features and qualities that I find very pleasant, to which she responded that I was "a total sweet talker, a quality that can be very dangerous." A ha, the plot thickens. Maybe I am way off base about this, but it really seems to me that she likes me at least a little bit.

Well, after that, I told her that my sweet talking is probably how I ended up in TN in the first place, and she asked why that was, so I told her about how I met my wife online and began talking to her, which I am sure I chronicled in some earlier entry. She thought it was all very sweet, but also sad, because of how things have turned out. Then things took a turn for the...more interesting, at least in my opinion. I won't go through the whole conversation from that point on, but suffice it to say that I was pretty open about the effect she was having on me, and she took the opportunity to tease me mercilessly. For instance, she said to me that she was not responsible for anything that she did well in my head. I told her that she didn't even want to know what was going on in there. So she asked, "Why? Am I in an awkward position?" I said that it was a very good position for me. She says, "As long as it works for you." I say, "Umm, yeah, safe to say it works." I apologized for not being able to shut up, but she said that she found it quite entertaining. The long and short of the rest of it is that I admitted I will probably be thinking about this conversation when I do see her next and am bound to have a physical reaction to it. She enjoys making me squirm and will probably take every opportunity to tease. I basically told her that I am a believer in the whole friends with benefits thing, so if she ever needs an extra hand or some other appendage, I have no trouble with that and will not think it means we are anything more than friends who enjoy each other's company. She said that she will keep that in mind. At the end of the conversation, I told her that she is a bad influence. She says, "What?!? I am behaving myself." I say, "Uh huh, sure..." She says, "Oh trust me, this is me behaving." And then I say something I would never believe that I would say ever. I said, "If that's true, I kinda wanna see what happens when you don't." Jeez, I still can't believe I said that 2 days later. She said, "Haha trouble!" I told her that I was up for it. She said, "Another thing to keep in mind." Finally, since she had been having trouble staying awake at this point, almost 2 AM, I said that I just needed to stop being a perv and let her get to sleep. We wished each other a good night and sweet dreams and went to bed. Umm, who is the guy who had that conversation and where has he been all along. Weeks ago, I would have had trouble believing that I would have the guts to ask her out. I wish I could post a pic to show y'all how beautiful she is, but I wouldn't do that without permission. But she is so far out of my league, it isn't funny. Still, she seems to find me very entertaining at the very least. I mean, girls please tell me, do you have a four hour long conversation with a guy you have no interest in at all? Maybe I am wrong, but someone is going to have to tell me. But I never would have believed that I would say any of the stuff I said to her, and it isn't like she shut me down on any of it. Hell, she encouraged it by teasing and just letting me keep going on and on. Anyway, I am looking forward to our next conversation, not to perv out on her more, but just to talk to her. If the other stuff happens, well that will be fun too. And I am looking forward to hanging out with her more than ever. I kinda want to see if she really is going to mess with me to watch me squirm. I wouldn't mind in the least. Anyhow, this entry has gotten plenty long enough, but someone really has to tell me if I am way off base with what I am thinking about this. Any feedback is helpful and sorry if any of this has been TMI. Anyway, I will get back here when we do finally get the chance to hang out and maybe before. Until then, good night to all of you.