I’m embarrassed in Second 1st

For him… because of him....

So Rocky brought with him, and took any pain medicine/ muscle relaxers we could find. Right when we got to the hospital. It was a fair walk from our spot to registration. He was out of breath and hurting. They got him signed in and carted him in a wheel chair to another waiting room. The woman pushing him walked way to fast and when we got to the new waiting area Rocky said he heard me fall into the wall once.... I did twice… speed is not my friend.

We waited maybe 10 mins and he’s been back there for like an hour....when the nurse came to get me.

She needs help.....Rocky “can’t” do it. So I went back there and talked to him for a bit. We discussed this before we got here.....

This won’t be covered in a few days. The alternative has “death” as a possibility and is going to hurt a lot more than laying on his back and being still. He also would have to remain awake for that. … sedated just meant drugs which are apparently doing nothing.

I do not know how I’m going to handle it if he doesn’t somehow manage to get through this. Like the thought of divorce so I don’t have to watch him die..... he’s not getting better..... and he’s squandering the opportunities to find out what the problem is!

He was unable.... nurse came out to talk to me.... I’m in tears I have no idea what to do