Roller derby hurts in 2014

Feel like a massive bellend tonight. Feel like I'm pretending to be all YAYS cause we did a win n shiz and it's about the team, and not the individuals but I feel like I was just the dead weight that had to be played cause we showed up, like the kid that gets the "best effort" badge on sports day. And then even saying that makes me feel like a twat cause then I'm being a needy bastard and making it about me. And it's about the team. But I thought i had been doing really well in training and then I barely got played so obviously I'm shit, and that shook me and made me feel horrible and useless and afraid. And this is irrelevant, obviously.