Balancing act in Bittersweet

  • Nov. 23, 2020, 3:09 a.m.
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Im struggling with the balancing act of working full time, coming home to help work with the kids, do dinner and cleaning. I dont expect T to do it all. He technically works ( from home ) but i come home and im SO exhausted. He keeps telling me ill get used to it. He fails to understand, i mean really understand, that i likely wont get used to it. The autoimmune disorder part dosent just GO AWAY because im being more active. My body is still going to continue trying to kill itself. It dosent just stop because now im being more occupied by work too. He seems to think that autoimmune disorders go away if you work out more. It dosent work like that. Logically he knows. But i dont think he really remembers.

We ran out of wet cat food. Shenanikittens and hijinks are NOT amused. They are following EVERYONE trilling. Then running to their food dish and trilling more. They have dry food. But not wet. And they get baby food in the am. I need to grab a few cans. You would think working in a farm store. i would remember. But no. I suck haha.

I finished 3 yarns this week. I did a merino, which it says its 23 micron but it feels more coarse then that. Like knit a hat and felt it or use it with a liner or something. Its not that soft. Then a alpaca and angora blend which IS soft. But i am allergic to the alpaca so my arms are itching so bad. I didnt do a great spin on it. Its looser then it should be in a lot of spots. Not sure what the heck i was doing when i didnt keep my spin even. Tiredness i guess? Im going to list them in etsy at a discounted rate. The grey is just too scratchy for me. T says its fine and dosent bug him. And the fawn angora and alpaca is a lovely yarn. Just loosely spun. Gotta be a bit more careful about knitting it. The last one is a 18 micron springy merino. I dyed it in funky lucky charms marshmallow colors and plied it on itself. Its random and fun and colorful. Its enough for a knit hat. Not for a crochet one. But thats fine lol. Seems like more knitters then crocheters like handspun.
Either way.
I spun another 18 micron merino braid it was teal and gold kinda. Its kinda odd ball shades. I THOUGHT i got the teals and golds to be proportionate to one another as i dyed it. Guess not. There is way more of the teal then the gold. It should have been a teal aqua and gold. And the aqua and teal ended up mixing too well. So its just 2/3rds blue and 1/3 gold. Not sure how i want to fix it. Ply it on itself? Or ply it on something else. Originally i wanted to ply it on the grey. But i did that one on its own. Im glad i did.

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Anyway that is it. Im thinking my phone is either taking some really crappy photos, or my computer is seeing them super crappy. Take your pick. I need to calibrate my monitor i guess. I cant find the spyder tool that does it for me. Not since i moved. And that is a 200 dollar tool. Figures. Sigh.

Ok i guess i better go do some food shopping, Debating swinging into my store and rabbit rabbit food, its my day off lik. Or do it during work. Not sure ill do so well going while at work. I literally come home and within 5 minutes of laying down im asleep. T is getting quite frustrated at my lack of wanting sex. Dude, i want to SLEEP. Thats it. Thats all i have energy for. Sleep. So i guess i better go do it today. And get some wet food for Hijinks and Shennaikittens. Right now they are on the nip and acting like they are insane.
Meanwhile my i think she may be pregnant bunny. hasnt had kits and i dont feel them, So maybe not! Which is a good thing. She was young for it.

Ok. Im going to do the store adulting thing. Maybe get some Christmas shit haha.


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