On another note. in Since OD is shutting down....

I am really fucking tired of people that are just all about themselves. It’s really frustrating when people take from me and don’t seem to consider that I have a child to worry about. It’s like no one takes into account that my daughter doesn’t have a Dad. She’s never known what it is to have him involved and he doesn’t help financially. I am the sole provider of my kid and people still have this attitude that I need to put their needs and wants above hers!!! I can’t afford to be generous.

It’s like my Mom asking when I’m going to get some money from the insurance settlement. Why even ask? She should know that she won’t be getting anything!! I’m a single Mom and I haven’t worked in 3 months! I won’t be getting a lot and what I do get has to go for a new car seat, vacuum, a couple of past due bills and providing my child with a decent Christmas! Whatever is left is going to sit in my account until it’s needed. I’m not like my parents where if I have any money that I need to hurry up and waste it! I’ve watched them do that shit my whole life and that’s why I’m so good with money and even without a job, I still have money saved!!

My Mom likes to come over and bang down a huge portion of our food and that’s entitled behavior. Apparently she doesn’t care that not only is she taking food from my mouth, but my daughter’s mouth as well. I also buy food and completely forget about it because I don’t have to eat everything right away. I like to save stuff for later. It’s like the ice cream she ate most of, it had been bought probably 3 weeks ago. These people are just so greedy and wasteful that it’s disgusting.

I just wish people understood that they aren’t just taking from me when they’re being selfish and entitled, they are taking from someone way more important. It’s also irritating that I have to be really tight lipped any time I get a big chunk of money because it’s not like they would be happy for me, but stand there waiting for a hand out. I learned that shit when I was pregnant and told my Mom I had money saved for my maternity leave. They got as much out of me as they possibly could and never paid me back. They straight up took advantage of a new Mom. Then one year when my friend was here, I made the mistake of telling him I got my income tax because I had checked my account and was so excited that I opened my mouth and the next thing I know I’m spending $65 on lunch at Olive Garden!

No one seems to get what I’ve spent just on diapers/pull ups and daycare every year! I spend thousands so when I get my income tax, it’s basically just getting reimbursed for at least some of it and it’s not like I can just go on some wild shopping spree, I always have bills that need to get paid and I have to save it for car repairs, holidays/daughter’s birthday, and just to help us get through the year. I’m very smart with my money and know how to just put it away and forget about it.

I can’t stand entitled ass people where if you have something and they don’t, you need to just fucking fork it over! Well no one is taking care of me, or my daughter. I’ve paid for everything out of my own pocket all along so yeah, when I get big sums of money, I don’t say a motherfucking word. It’s just so great that no one will help and if they do, it’s expensive and then they still think they’re fucking owed shit!! Then everyone wonders why I spent years at work and at home with my daughter and kept everyone at a distance. Well, every time I have anything to do with anyone, I have to be shelling out money and it always ends on bad terms!!!