A Lot in Friends With the Benedicts

There's a lot that I really need to write about. Like how my brother is disappearing into the grip of Bipolar disorder and I dunno how to help my Mom help him. They made a breakthrough today by actually TELLING my stepdad what has been going on but he is so clueless about mental illness, he thinks making him wake up and go with him to work is the answer. Yes, it will do him good to get out of his godforsaken room but it's not gonna be great for his ever growing anxiety around people! I know too much about this subject, way more than I should! And about how my cat Rilee went into labor while we were sleeping and we woke up to dead and dying kittens and had to take her to get a Csection and she had 3 left in her and every single kitten died! And about how I was approved for Medicaid!!! And about how Kataleah is gonna give birth to her 3rd litter soon. We are not thrilled but as long as they can freakin survive! Too much death in this household lately and what's weird is that they are all unrelated! We NEVER had babies die. Now I am scared to even have them be born. And just... other stuff. I miss writing. But I cannot commit here. I am so tired of waiting... but I know EWS is working as hard as he can, and yes he is almost done! When he is and I leave I will reinvent myself entirely. My name will NOT be the same. New place, new identity. Those who matter will know. I will also take the time to eliminate those who have become... not something I want in my life. So... for now... bye.