Twitter Sized Thought in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020

Today my brother texted us about my niece. After her schooling, she went to her Dad and asked him about his day. How seminary is going… how his studies are different to hers, how he is doing. A conversation involving questions about his life and activities. She’s 7. I rarely got a conversation like that from my wife. I rarely get a conversation like that from anyone! lol

A little more here…I am definitely actively trying to repress my codependency habits. I told Victoria that I would be free this week on Tuesday or Wednesday. She said her Wednesday looked free than asked if I was free to do errands with her tonight. I asked what errands and she said going out of town to one of the cities “near” here (60 minutes one-way) to hit up Target. I apologized and declined without giving a reason. She said, “Okay, see you on Wednesday prolly.”
I was SO tempted to send her an apology and explain that I just had too much to do tonight and blah blah but I didn’t. I swallowed that anxious urge and just left it as is. She asked if I could do something. I needed more information to know if I could. She provided information that established I could not. I told her I could not. Nothing more needed.

It’s honestly tough for me to leave it at that, I tell you. My instinct is to rush in, explain, make sure we’re still all good. Follow that anxiety and anxious attachment. But I won’t. Because (1) we’re not dating; and (2) I need to learn and follow more healthy behaviors.