Tired. in Since OD is shutting down....

Just so tired. From going to work, school and trying to find time for homework, I don't have much time for sleep. It gets very frustrating but tomorrow I am planning to sleep until about noon since I won't have class and don't work until late afternoon.

So, I managed to tell someone at work about my interest in becoming a supervisor and she just had to run her mouth to the boss. They are now starting the process of training me on stuff that I don't know and I'm scared as fuck. I was so pissed at her the other night for telling me that she told them because I have absolutely no confidence in myself, it's more hours, more responsibility and I'm just scared that I won't measure up. It's exciting to know that the managers are all for me possibly making this leap but it's scary to think that everyone has more confidence in me than I do. School is out in like a month and then I could put in more hours and make this happen but I'm absolutely terrified. I just wish she wouldn't have told anyone without asking me if it was okay first. I know it's not the end of the world but I just feel like there's been so many changes in my life that I don't even get the chance to become comfortable with what's going on right now before moving on to other things.

I have to work in a few minutes and I'm just exhausted but have to keep in mind that when I get home tonight, I can sleep as much as I want. I have homework too so Friday night I plan to get some food and just sit down for a few hours and get some shit done.

I've done a lot of online shopping and because of that, I've had to get a new bank account since some place that I've never heard of took money out without my knowledge or permission and because that makes me so uncomfortable, I got a new account which means I now don't have a debit card which is going to get really fucking old for the next couple of weeks. I can already feel myself getting stressed out because now I plan to pay everything in a check which takes time and I have to remember when to get everything sent out on time and I'm just worried that I'll need money but won't be able to get any because the bank isn't open 24 hours a fucking day. I am just so pissed that people have to steal to earn their living! Thank God I check my account like everyday or I may have never noticed the money coming out! I am just so over thieves! I think I went through enough over my car deal that I should be good on being fucked over for awhile!

So, my laptop has to restart since it's done installing updates and I need to get ready for work. More later.