I'm pretty sure I'm disassociating again... in In My World

I’m fucking heartbroken and I have no Idea how else to feel right now. A friend of mine from high-school died and I found out yesterday morning. I haven’t figured out the right words to write about him because we weren’t super close anymore but I know we were friends still. He was the first person to visit my animal crossing town when the game came out. He was someone I always wanted to be closer with, I just never had the opportunity. I am so fucking sick of losing people. I’m only 20 fucking 5 years old. 25. I’m older now than some of my friends when they died. This is bullshit.

This isn’t how life is supposed to go. Parents aren’t supposed to outlive their kids. People aren’t supposed to die before they ever had a chance at what life can really be.

I still don’t have the words to articulate how I feel or how awful this is.