Birthday Festivities in Since OD is shutting down....

My co-workers took me out for my birthday last night. I didn't get home until about 5am and I was very drunk, tired and could already feel my hang over coming on. It was a great night and I wish I was able to have more nights like that. I'm just exhausted and plan to go to bed as soon as my laundry gets done. I have to work all day tomorrow so I want to get as much sleep as I can.

The night was great, I was just so tired and didn't want to go in the first place but it turned out fine. One of my co-workers said something about the 2 guys I kinda crush on were only nice to me because they have to be. It kinda bothered me but I've always kinda felt like that anyway. I don't know, I guess it's hard for me to think that anyone is nice to me because they want to. I'm used to people only being nice because they have to be. I told another co-worker about that and she said that wasn't true at all but I just don't believe it. I just have a hard time believing that people can be nice to me without having selfish motives behind it.

I am just exhausted and as soon as my laundry is done drying, I'm going to put it away and climb into bed. I was asked to go shoot pool tonight but I have to be at work at 10:30 tomorrow morning and be there for at least 10 hours so I'm staying home.

Oh and I got rear-ended on Wednesday. The road was packed with snow and slippery as fuck. The girl had enough sense to swerve instead of hit me dead on and just gave me a little scuff. The older lady that was with her was the actual owner of the vehicle paid for it. I got some money out of it which is going towards getting a couple of new tires since I have 2 that are pretty much bald. I am so thankful that the accident happened because now I'll be able to get some new tires and pay a couple of bills.

I have been waiting for my new cd player to come and it was supposed to be here yesterday which didn't happen so I just went and bought one and had my friend hook it up. I still don't have radio since I have to buy an adapter and I have a blown speaker in the door which I'm going to have to replace but it works so much better. I'm just hoping after this that I'm done buying cd players for awhile. I've bought so many and have had to pay people to hook them up, I could have bought a small country with the money I've spent at this point. But hopefully, this will be it for awhile.

I am so worried that I'm not going to be able to wake up in time for work tomorrow or I'm just gonna be dragging ass all day. I've been eating nothing but fast food and crap for days again and it's making me really sad. I'm just always too busy and tired to come home and make something. My weight is gradually going back up and my feet are hurting like crazy again. I honestly hate myself for eating junk food but I just don't have the energy or patience to cook stuff. I just don't know what to do about this but I don't like gaining even more weight and then trying to be okay with what I see in the mirror.

Not really sure what else to write about. I ended up getting rid of Straight Talk all together and just switching to Verizon on Wednesday. I had gotten yet another phone and that one was just as much of a piece of shit so I took it back and got a phone through Verizon and so far, I couldn't be happier with my service. I will never recommend Straight Talk to service because the phones are pieces of shit no matter what the brand or how much you spend and even when your phone stops working for days at a time, they won't extend your service to make up for the days your phone was useless. I dealt with this same headache for 2 years and I am just so thankful that I don't have to worry about it anymore. I only pay $10 more now than before and it's completely worth it. It sucks that I still had 2 weeks left of service with Straight Talk but eating that money was completely worth it so have a good working phone with service now.

Anyway, time to get ready for bed.