Bad thoughts in Journal 2020
- July 30, 2020, 5:50 p.m.
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Today I had a bad thought well last night. That Calin, was dating my friend. I dont know where that thought came from but it makes me cry. I cried and I felt like throwing up due to the sheer amount of fear. I’m scared that’ll make me end it all or worse.
I want him happy but I cant let myself hurt anymore. He talks to me sometimes now and it makes me happy . But what if he is dating someone else? I cant stop crying I don’t think it’s normal to be this attached to someone you stopped dating two months ago. But I’m scared to let go.
I want to make the mixtape but what if he listens and is angry? Or hates it? What to do what do. I dont know what to do :( I love Calin so much I could write poetry about it. But he doesnt love me, he’s gay, he’s moved on. But I cant stop and it’s horrible of me and it’s all my fault.
I just want him happy and to love himself.
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