so. um. what depression? and pinched nerves. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

i think. my depression’s increased only. i don’t know what that feels like. understand. i’m recovering from a tbi. my actions. have indicated. that it’s increased.
apparently. i have a pinched nerve in my left. elbow. no. it’s not that i’m in denial: it’s that i can’t feel anything. physically there. this is an actual legitimate thing. [well. i am in denial.]. that’s why it feels like i’m fine. cause i can’t feel pain. although. it is a nice a change from having my hand hurt from PN. not, a good change, obviously. like hey i can’t feel anything! oh. wait.
my arm tingled like mad earlier today. left arm. for a short bit. that’s a sign. of a dislocated. elbow.
i think. i bruised a kidney. or i pulled a muscle. last night. but how the hell would i have pulled a muscle? no i understand the concept of how, it works. but like. i don’t remember doing so.........that doesn’t mean anything. i didn’t go, anywhere........... i was pretty fuked up last night so. i’m better now. well. from that. i remember...............in the bathrm. we have this um. shelf, thing as part of the wall. that’s under a window. and i leaned against that..............so maybe that’s how i bruised it. yeah cause that area hurt a bit some time after i woke up.
oh yeah talking about bathrms. sorry. i have digestive issues now. sorry. at least. yesterday and............sat. i did. i haven’t been. eating anything different, from what i normally do. so. it has to be the tbi. my visits. er increased. i’ll stop, as it’s TMI.
it’s not that i took aspirin last night: it’s what i’d already taken. like. well fuk. obviously. i never should’ve done that. i was in pain severe pain. and that was the quickest route. to make it go away. and i mean physical pain. didn’t take a lot.
yeah. i’m fuked.
i’m just so fragile my body.
did i mention? i’m having trouble w/ empathy lately? well. if i did now i’ll have mentioned twice. and if i didn’t well.
no advice thank you,