so. i did something really stupid. and crying from pain. and really embarrassed. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

this was after. i got fuked up. due to sub. ..............that. well last night for about 20 mins. the pain/nausea got really bad. i was like crying from the pain. and i have a high pain tolerance so. well so at 12:50 midnight i went down and got some aspirin. realising. almost too late that. it was a really bad idea. i didn’t get a lot. so when i got back upstairs i took it. and grabbed my phone.........or maybe i’d grabbed my phone prior? btw. i’d had a bit before, all this. waited 20 mins. for the aspirin to kick in. i am really embarrassed.
and i. felt like i was going to pass out. luckily i was sitting on the floor. and i damn near did. but ‘woke myself up’.
i had some water. after 20 mins. i got ‘TMI sick’. again. actually. ............probably a good thing.
like i’m fine. that’s all that happened. [well. not that fine. obviously.]. no i mean. nothing more happened. it was just a really scary 20 - 30 mins.
holy fuk. and this. is exactly why i personally. don’t allow myself to have any pills in my possession. i’m sorry...............i’m really fukin embarassed.
this has been./that was. one of the worst nights i’ve had in a long time. and it’s now 1:50 a.m.