Tompelled in Current Events

I’ve already said this but I am getting too attached to politics. I don’t have to let it take up so much space in my life but it just feels desperate because of the US election this November. The world needs America to be strong to protect us from China. The Democrats are more desperate than ever and pushing this pandemic and these racial tensions hard at the public. A lot of whom are just buckling under the pressure and just reacting to the panic porn accordingly. I know that the silent majority is out there though. The failed Goya Foods boycott inspires some confidence in that for me. Also, it is just sport at this point fighting with SJWs in comment sections. It’s disturbing at how brainwashed they all are. They are not telling me what they think they are just trying to represent what they were taught. I could replace one person with another and they will just tell me the exact same things. Is individualism is dying? I used to be just as brainwashed so I do have a lot of empathy for them. Until they attack me instead of my arguments then I might get a little sassy back. I can see why some pundits like to go down to universities and make a spectacle out of these snowflakes. Anyway, I really don’t know what else to say here. I mean, I do have stuff going on I just don’t feel like sharing them at this time but I felt compelled to write an entry. I guess this is just me letting myself get overstimulated to avoid doing things that I should be doing. Classic me lol. I should go face the music then. Jordan Peterson is like my hero right now. My first ever male role model. I only bring this up because I was watching a lecture he was giving about social anxiety and it just made me realize my lack of focus. Focus seems to be a common theme among the content I have been watching now that I think of it. That is a huge problem I have. I always knew it was an issue but now I can see how it is the root cause of almost everything. It is a result of fear I suspect. I’ll overthink this later. It’s so weird because I remember JP through my “leftist lens”. He was a boogeyman who hated trans people and women. That is so fucking far from the truth, god I was so brainwashed. Last night I remembered how I felt when I started to become a political consumer. I went to the other side of the aisle to let myself become uncomfortable by actually listening to what the other side truly had to say. Fuck, I felt betrayed and angry and last night I managed to put that into some context. I was feeling like everything I ever believed was a lie and designed to manipulate my emotions, sensemaking and choice making. All the boogeymen that the left painted turned out to be the only people on my side. Anyway, I want to go for a run and stuff and things like that before I go to visit my grandmother again later. Ta!