subdural hematema. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

yeah so i have this. now. apparently. it’s bleeding in the head but outside of the brain. [well i knew i hit my head. obviously.]. and i think it’s one of those slow-acting ones otherwise i’d be well. in a coma which thankfully. and clearly. i’m not.
omygod. the symptoms might get worse over the next wk. or so. also i’m on my period during which. i get nauseaus anyway. oh surface, of the brain. according to wisegeek . com. maybe i like. shouldn’t go anywhere for awhile? yeah but that’s. not possible due to how private i am. well fuk.
what’s weird is. i don’t remember at what point the whiplash happened. was it before i passed out or? like? i. i have no idea right now. FML
also if it was fast-acting i would’ve had a thunderclap like. right away. and i know cause i’ve had 2 in the past. 2.5 yrs. they’re awful. ok so. a blood vessel broke, or tore. like a kit kat bar. and the blood went.........actually. it doesn’t. it just. stays there. oh ok. it says.............that sometimes. the blood is absorbed by the body. [or there’s a chance i may stroke out. yes this happens to young people too.]. dear god.
but. a few sites have said it’s a TBI?...........well i guess that makes sense. like it damages the brain tissue. or the tissue............i should actually know the layers of the brain. but have since forgotten. like if i put actual tissues in a container. and the container was a metaphoric ‘brain’ and the actual tissues got damaged. then yeah ok i can see that. oh but it’s a TBI in the sense. that of course the brain is damaged. by internal forces. oh ok. i think. unless i’m wrong? i’m really confused.
oh and it’s the layer between the brain and the skull. so. it’s the middle part. oh so w/ some of them they just randomly stop.
well of course i don’t remember. i was passed out for like. a couple mins. yeah but when i was waiting for the bus. standing holding onto a tree. something def. felt off. physically.
oh. wait maybe i did bump into the car........cause whiplash is a forward-back motion. never side-to-side. i don’t remember doing so but that doesn’t mean anything. ok maybe that’s right when i passed out. started to, hit my head on the car, if the car was even there in the first place which i really hope it was. cause otherwise. ........... got whiplash, then down i went................landed on my left side. ok but how the fuk did i bruise my right elbow if i landed on my left side? that makes no sense. unless i rolled? from my right to my left? and then laid there? apparently a lot happened in like. those 2 mins. that’s my guess anyway. like i said i was passed out at the time. exactly how many times did i hit my head? yeah no that’s a good question.
yeah so sleep. every time well. yesterday and tues. right before i go to sleep. i always see the car. in my mind. right in front of me like it was that day. on mon. fuk.
oh god.
ok so. there’s obviously a reason i went into the rolling movement/position to begin w/. but why? or. i landed.............no if i’d landed on all fours my knees would have bruises on them as well. i could be completely off as to if i actually did this. rolled. since i have no memory of that particular event.
but evidently. something must’ve kicked in and told me i needed to save my energy. which. it takes less energy to roll.
also. i don’t remember getting into, the rolling position. no i don’t think i did it. conscously. [well no obviously.]. either i did it on some level of my own accord. or.............something came and pushed me into.............omygod. or as a result. of being pushed my body just. went there.
and i only think. i went into that position based on the fact that my right elbow is presumably bruised and pained as well.