not everyone gets another chance at life. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

not everyone's that lucky.

But I was. I got another chance last May. and I've gotten another.....and another.........and so on they. just weren't as bad as the one in May.

yeah um. I don't remember a lot of what happened that night and in a way thank god I don't. i'm scared [talking of fear] that the next time. I won't. ever since. then.

And what I do remember has been in my private entries. i'm not ready to deal w/ that yet which is why they're private.

fuk I've been lucky. regardless of how I feel about me or my life or my past or. w/e.

Please. Think of a reason not to, well. go of your own accord if you can. It can literally be anything. i'm saying this bc a friend of mine did, Karlye. the girl I've written about in recent prior entries. I'm not saying don't feel that way.

Also. the best thing I can tell anyone is just live. experience. and never. miss a thing. My best friend Pat was one of the most alive people I've ever known.

everyone's alive. but not everyone lives - me.

it's been almost a yr.

Last updated August 09, 2014