When you Try in Journal

It feels really good. I feel like you care. I feel like you want to be around. I feel wanted. I feel valued.
And I know it’s just as much my fault when I don’t feel this way. I know that I can be cold, unresponsive, manipulative, annoying, uncaring, rejecting, selfish. I know that makes you feel really bad. It makes you feel rejected, depressed, unwanted, valueless, etc. And I do regret that. I regret it and I feel terribly about it.
All of that, truthful though it may be, is utterly unhelpful and obvious.

I want to do better. Tell me more.

This sentiment is really the only thing that matters. Wherever we are at; if I want to do better. If I want to know more. Then I can. Then we can. We can elevate our relationship to the stars.

We can construct a beautiful feedback loop in which we both give useful and helpful advice to tackle the unique challenges of excellence.

And, excellence is a challenge.

I have this odd relationship with success and achievement. I say odd only because I do not observe it in anyone around me. Yet I think it’s probably the correct way to stand in relation to success.
Which is, to learn and enjoy the process. To get better at the process of being excellent. The key word in being great is not great. It’s being.

I could go on but I think this is so fundamentally true that not much else is worth being said about it.