3 months 10 days post op in Pudendal Decompression Surgery

Things to be greatful for
1) Had a horrendous day, but kept the anxiety under control
2) Took my walk around the cul de sac and got the mail
3) Got a lot of rest today.
4) I have been noticing a lot of itching with could mean healing
5) Talked to a few new people who had some good things to say.

Bad things
1) Pain is 100% on after having a BM this morning, worse than the past two days
2) The entire nerve branch on the left is on including the vulvar area.
3) Mentally really distraught about the pain, depression. Felt like the whole day was wasted.
4) Felt like the whole day was wasted, fell asleep during Mike Shinoda.
5) I wasnt able to do any reading/ writing.